Is anyone else having a challenge of doing things scriptural, verses what the secular world says. As in scripture says to put others before me whereas the secular world says put me first. I know what is right, just wondering if others may struggle with this. And how do we mourn the loss of ourselves without sinking into depression? How do we have joy in the midst of our trials and tribulations? It seems that as time passes my patience doesn't hurt as much, (must be experience), but still everyday I start wearing down where my patience begins to hurt a little and I am struggling not to let it be seen. I spend a lot of time in prayer and in the word, that is the only way I have the strength to do this, putting myself aside. But as a faulty human being, I am still in a struggle and seek like minded individuals who understand. May God bless all those who are loving their loved ones to the best of their ability.
Oh Lord I believe, help thou my unbelief.
I am so grateful that He knew me before the foundation of the world, He knew that I would struggle with letting go.
I am always asking, help thou my unbelief.
HE is wonderful!!!!
Amazing Grace!
Nahum 1:7 KJV
May we all find strength in HIS words to get through this day.
I have a beautiful wall hanging that I read each morning as I am starting my day, "The will of God will never take you where the grace of God will not protect you" as I bump into trials and tribulations I know that HE is with me and I have nothing to fear and I know that we already have the victory, so I find it easier to ignore the lies that the enemy uses to try and cause me to stumble. May HE guide each of us this day.
I wish this was in every town , everywhere
So I am just sharing that maybe it will be encouragement, or reviving or helpful to you all. As I was encouraged by it.
One of the things I found interesting was that these two verses share the same numbers only reversed. Anyway interesting to me.
But this I say, He which soweth sparingly shall reap also sparingly; and he which soweth bountifully shall reap also bountifully. 2 Corinthians 9:6
And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not. Galatians 6:9
So what caught my attention was what we sew. We can sew the very least we can or nothing, or we can sew bountifully, above and beyond what we want or feel like.
And in Galatians it says we shall reap if we faint not.
So if we don't do well for others, or do the very least we can, we will reap very little.
But if we go above and beyond the call of duty, and do well for others even when it hurts, we will reap bountifully.
That was encouraging to me. As I have been worn out especially since the new addition of my people needing care. But the Lord gave me these verses last night, and that just helped me so much, to know that my labor is not in vain. That my fatigue and sacrifice will not be forgotten by my Lord.
Anyway, I just wanted to share. Much love to you all, and especially much prayers.
Your labor is never in vain, but comes back to you on hundred fold. Wait on the Lord ...
God is always right on time. Never ceases to amaze me.
Imagine if we all humbled ourselves and called on Jesus, looking to Heaven expecting when we prayed. That would be the rapturing faith to get us home.
I am trying to make a special 80th for Mom. It is hard doing all this alone knowing there are others out there who should care.
I am just really struggling with the weight of the feelings I do not want to have about my siblings. So please pray for me. Please.
I feel so guilty for having these feelings and I am praying about it.
Towards the end of my mom's life she and I spent a few of her birthdays just the two of us. I knew all my siblings knew when her Birthday was. I think everyone just was waiting for the next one to plan something and since I didn't feel like rounding them up (and why should have I or you for that matter) They know when your mom's b'day is.
So there we were, the two of us. Mom looking sad cause the others didn't even phone. The thing that really hurt was the fact that my younger brother (who is a real dick) would light up her face when he walked into a room. And he never lifted a finger. One day we were both visiting mom at the nursing home. I was in the washroom and heard my mom saying to him "you are the best thing that ever happened to me" To say I was hurt was an understatement. When I had done everything and he had done nothing.
I still think of these things four years after my mom's death. I know it's pointless and I pray long and hard about these things Smeshque. So don't beat yourself up too much. You are only human.
I want to remind you that righteous anger is biblical and it is okay to feel it. It is a normal, natural emotion to the situation with your mom and siblings.
May God give you the strength to forgive them, they know not what they do.
Hugs!
Huge hugs to you dear Smeshque. I'm wrapping my arms around you from afar.
Luke 23:34 Father forgive them, for they know not what they do.
Gershun- No sorries here, ok. It is very helpful to share our stories with one another, it makes us feel less lonely and that someone understands. I can imagine how hurt you were by that comment you heard said to your brother. I know it would sting me to the core. Thank you for the prayers.
Isthisreal- Thank you for the reassurance that my feelings are forgiveable and normal and that it is a real reason to be upset. And thank you for your prayers.
Llama- Thank you for your encouragement, I know you know how it feels as well. Thank you for your prayers. I was just having a weak moment. I do forgive them, I know the blessings they miss out on. Hugs
I am feeling better and have given it to God, (until I take it back, Isthisreal, :) )I will try not to take it back.
Today I was making out a check to pay one of AB's bills. I had not paid attention to the date probably all week. As I made it out for the 18th, I thought Oh wow it is the 18th, then yesterday was the 17th.
Yesterday was my Wedding Anniversary, only DH and I have been caught up in Mom's and AB's needs that we didn't even realize it. I told DH this evening Happy Anniversary, He said Happy Anniversary? I said Yesterday was our Anniversary. He said Oh no, I was really trying not to forget, I forget all other dates, I was really trying to make sure I didn't forget. I told Him, well if it makes you feel any better, I didn't know until I was writing a check what the date was.
So I just hugged him told him HA and we went on as usual. Oh well!
Yesterday we have been married 13 years, not comparable to many but a big thing as I did not think we would make it this far, but then we gave our lives to Jesus, and he transformed us into new and better people. We have been together 14 years, and I have known him over 20. So that's all about that.
Rough day today, but the Lord brought me through and I am thankful.
“All things were made by him; and without him was not any thing made that was made.”
John 1:3
My reality now
Sometimes I find the only way I can give advice is to think of a story where I may have experienced something similar and learned maybe something from. That's why I tell my personal experiences.
Unfortunately, my anger towards my siblings just simmers down for a while and then comes back to a boil. I guess I should just stop watching the pot. Or is it "A watched pot never boils" So then I guess I should be watching the pot?................what the heck am I even talking about. LOL
I did make someone laugh today when I was out. That's always good.
Let me think of a story for today. A meaningful story though.
So there is this lady that works at the local Starbucks by my place. She always seemed kind of miserable. My hubs would snap at her cause she wasn't very friendly which just in turn made her more miserable. I whispered to Hubs one day when we were in the lineup, who knows what is going on in her life, maybe she has a lot going on, she's not a bad person, just be friendly with her.
Well it worked. Every time we go in there or I go in there by myself now she is bubbly and friendly and chats. She's like my best buddy there.
So lesson learned. It may not always work but it's worth a try. Give people the benefit of the doubt and they may surprise you.
That's my "me" story for today, Aug. 21, 2019
I totally agree, Tiger!
Gershun I look forward to your daily stories. Please do share. Good, Bad, Happy, Sad, whatever you feel like sharing. I love stories.
A smile, and a kind word gift that keeps on giving, and can totally change a persons day.
And thank you for the Happy Anniversaries!
“Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.”
Proverbs 3:5