Good evening all hope that you had a good day. My day was not to bad but for some reason tonight I cannot get anything done that I want to do. My mom has gone to bed and I got some lessons ( I am taking a online class for medical coding) And I am half way there and cannot concentrate. I took my own version of a Spring break and am having trouble getting back into the books. While I am having my Spring break mom has a small heart attack and spent a few days in the hospital and then I am thinking I wanted a break but not like this. Wellshe is back home and is on a few more meds and one of them makes her pee all day long and she needs help getting to the bathroom and pulling up her depends ( she calls them her panties) lol and them I have to empty the ostomy bag to. I cannot get back into the books and I am paying for this!And she has to go to the bathroom often even in the middle of the night so I have to get up and help her. I AM THE ONLY ONE WE HAVE NO FAMILY IN OUR STATE......I have finally asked for help to come in a few times a week to help out and will be glad when it starts. My mom is 95 she has a birthday next month and after that I am planning me some much needed respite. I was planning on going to visit some family/ friends but I have to take care of some medical issues for me so that will be the best time to do this for me and my health. My mom has dementia wears hearing aids and uses a walker and wears glasses and the ostomy pouch and is usually quiet until she needs you to do something for her and is always in a hurry. There are other issues to like my kids do not hear from them that's all I will say painful..:-( but I will keep standing no matter what just feeling a little frustrated tonight having me a glass of wine and when I am done with this taking me a hot bath and good night for me because it starts all over tomorrow. Taking this respite will be a good thing for me I just hope that she will not try any tricks like not getting in the car ( I do not plan on telling her till we get there she says that she understands and this is a lot for me but......we will see) And on the friends well they have disappeared mostly get a phone call just to "check in" see how I am doing and mom do not want to hear much of anything that I am going through so I have to keep it short...I don't blame them but you say you are my friend?. Having a relationship that is out of the question ( did have one about 5 years ago be he got tired and he left broke my heart .) Just feeling frustrated and got on this site and to vent /talk about my feelings . I am going to close for now to be continued.........God Bless you all goodnight......Purplerain
I also spot red flags in your reply which indicate to me that you live in a glass house..
Even Jesus drank wine...
too much witnessing turns people off. your'e implying that you have something that we need and are hopelessly lost without. you do your cause more harm than good. blah to the rhetoric, show us with your good works.
Sorry honey, but it reads to me that YOU might have been guilty of some of that SHIT you are spouting.....just because you were living it up when your loved one passed..hey... not all of us do that. YOU need to APOLOGIZE for your harsh words. EMPATHY! Look it up on Wikepedia.
Did you really say such nasty stuff? Meh... my eyes hurt from the foul shit you spouted.
So, my point, is don't be so hard on yourself. Take some time for you. It was great that you were able to do that when your mom was in the hospital. Bring in other caregivers, take some time for YOU! I would bring them in for whatever amount of time that you need to get class work done. Just imagine how much you could get done if you weren't having to chase after your mom.
Good luck with your class.