Hi AC Forum,
I feel like I run the gamut of emotions on a weekly basis. I think that is a difficult side of this caregiving. Not being able to fully satisfy - or not being able to satisfy for what should be a normnal period of time. And on the same token know that each day you go down this path you just running to the finish line.
It's the craziest and horrible life as I am not able to live my life, yet I have a hard time thinking of my mom living with less. Also not being the face of which she says to at first seeing her and asking her how she is, "Better now that I see you!" Knowing that you are the comfort in their sight. Yet what it takes from one feels enormous - emotionally, monetarily, physically.
How are you doing?
LastOne
I hope that truth shines bright enough to bring light, consolation and peace to your heart.
I’m sure she is very grateful and very proud John. May she Rest In Peace!
My Bishop was talking one day about we have a choice of having peace & joy. My first thought was that easy for him (my bishop) to say because he wasn't dealing with what I was dealing with.
But here is the thing: whether you believe in God or not we do have a choice on how we perceive our situation. We can look at it through eyes of resentment, disappointment, and hopelessness, or we can choose to say to ourselves, yes this sucks, but I am going to take back my life. Was it hard, yes! But I am choosing to let go of the resentment a little bit everyday and disappointment because it doesn't hurt my mother but it was killing me! I also choose to have hope that some how this will work for my good. I decide to have joy and peace everyday even if it is for 2 minutes a day. And when I started doing this my peace and joy started lasting longer. Does it work every day "no", but I try everyday. I refuses to live a life that is running over me! I refuse to give up on my goals and dreams. I have no idea how I am going to do it, I'll I know if I give up on myself I'll be the one paying the price.
Just last week I was given a big blow to my life that made me feel so deflated & disheartened. And I still have not figure out a solution. But I am working on it, alwhile trying to keep my peace and joy. How? I do things I love to do like watching a great movie, reading, cooking a great meal, playing with one of my cats, writing, or talking to friend about the crazy things our pets do, and therapy helps. Joy and peace sometime comes in the little things we do!
I really hope this helps you find your way to have some peace and joy that you deserve, that we all deserve for giving up so much.
May God open your heart and lets you find His peace, joy, and His love into your heart in Jesus' name. Amen
I don’t want to get into the can you place your parents in an outside care facility, look for help, hire someone, etc, etc. I think you need to focus on your immediate situation. Once you’re more calmed, feeling better physically, feeling lighter emotionally, you won’t feel like you are ready to crash. You will see!
Sending positive thoughts and good energy your way!
I pray that God gives you back everything that you had to give up and I pray that He makes it up to you. He is a JUST God in the name of Jesus. Amen
These are the times when one can do nothing else but putting our loved one and our worry in God’s hands, which are truly the best hands to hold our life, present and future. Trust Him John! trust that He will provide exactly what you and your mom need.
May You find peace and comfort despite the trouble you are facing!
And Smeshque is absolutely right, you are a good son!
You are an inspiration to us all, the way you have showed love and dedication to your Mom.
Thank you for being such a loving example.