Hi AC Forum,
I feel like I run the gamut of emotions on a weekly basis. I think that is a difficult side of this caregiving. Not being able to fully satisfy - or not being able to satisfy for what should be a normnal period of time. And on the same token know that each day you go down this path you just running to the finish line.
It's the craziest and horrible life as I am not able to live my life, yet I have a hard time thinking of my mom living with less. Also not being the face of which she says to at first seeing her and asking her how she is, "Better now that I see you!" Knowing that you are the comfort in their sight. Yet what it takes from one feels enormous - emotionally, monetarily, physically.
How are you doing?
LastOne
hug!!
I do my best and will continue doing my best in caring for her, but have lost myself along the way.
Im not ok. Mom has a dignity and grace about it that’s simply hard to witness without crying. We are believers. She wants to meet Jesus.
Thus far, I moved where I sleep into the living room so I can be closer and remedy distress. Sometimes we just sit together in silence and sometimes we talk.
ive been keeping it mostly private but, do you ever stop crying ?
So, here we are, on the roller coaster of dementia, and we all want to get off this ride. It's how the ride ends that's so awful. Well....I'm going to try to do more for myself, get some help here for a regular once a week break, and know I am doing the best I can and that is the best I can hope for.