My mom's little body finally succumbed to her years long battle with Alzheimer's on Sunday, June 14, at approximately 11:45 a.m.
It wasn't unexpected, and a day or two before she passed, although having been completely un-ambulatory and unable to move at all for many weeks, I witnessed her raising her arms as if she was reaching for those who were encouraging her to pass over.
I told her it was OKAY to cross over to those who were waiting for her, but since I knew the rest of the family were on their way and would be here to say their own personal goodbyes, I also asked her to TRY and hold on just another couple of days.... told her it wss HER CHOICE!
She took her last breath as I was massaging her arms, so I KNOW she was with me and that I was giving her as much comfort as I possibly could.
Godspeed, mom! You're now in the arms of the LOVE OF YOUR LIFE, your dearly departed husband of 50+ years, with Bonne Maman, and Bonne Papa, the child, Paul, that you lost at childbirth, and ALL of the rest of your departed relatives, friends, and even your pets!!!
I'm CERTAIN that you've been made welcome and that they've all gathered together to embrace you.
You were/are The VERY BEST MOTHER THAT A GIRL COULD HAVE EVER HOPED FOR and I'm going to miss you tremendously!!!
The ONLY problem that I'M HAVING at the moment is my inability TO CRY!!! I DON'T KNOW WHY the tears aren't coming!!! I'm just completely NUMB.
Michele
I think you will have plenty of time to cry. When my dad died of ALZ two years ago I went on pretty normally for a couple weeks as we planned funeral etc. A month later the tears flowed. (and I am a man, so I don't like to admit I cry)
But again, very sorry.
Don't worry about the tears; sometimes they don't come while you're dealing with the necessary end of life issues, then they fall like rushing Niagara waters when you're past the immediate end of life issues and begin to segue into a new life.
Hugs!!!
What a lovely statement you just made. I think the tears will come after your brain catches up to your heart. When you least expect it the tears will flow. When I lost my mom five years ago I broke down at the lettuce aisle when I saw the lettuce I used to pick up for my mom. It's the little things.
God Bless you!
May God grant you grieving mercies and comfort during this difficult time.
What a blessing to know where she is and to know that you will join them all one day.
Its comforting to know that her loved ones that passed before her came back to help her cross over ♡ My brother was a nurse for many years and witnessed patients reaching for and talking to deceased loved ones just before they passed. Sending love and light. Xo
Im very sorry for the loss of your sweet mom. You may simply be too tired to cry and as you said, she was ready to go. There is great peace in knowing a person was finished with this life. I’m glad you shared her memory with us. Take good care of yourself. Hugs