Husband is 68 Mild Dementia. I am angry, sad, depressed like I have never been before. I feel as though I am watching him die a little every day. He is not suddenly changing or anything like that. I just cannot do this! Monday I am calling a Therapist for me. I have to learn how to handle this. This could go on for years and it is NOT his fault. I thought I was a strong woman but I am doubting myself. I am not suicidal but IF I was............Thank you for letting me vent on here.
Friends are supportive but you are the one facing 24/7 misery. As for the ecig conversations going on, i worked my butt off getting him to give up smoking, got him on an ecig, only to find him sneaking out after 2 years to but cigarettes. Frankly i dont care any more if he wants to smoke. I hide them and give him one 3 times a day. Hes a gannet, any biscuits or sweets i leave in sight disappear in a flash.
You are going to have to pace yourself for the marathon.
This is a rough, rough, journey but there are a lot of caregiving spouses here in the same boat as you.
You may surprise yourself with how strong you end up being.
I'm definitely not the same person I was even 3 years ago since going through what I have with my mom.
Remember, if you don't take care of you, nobody else will. It's not selfish to ensure your own health and wellbeing.
Plan ahead. You are going to need night time care at some point. And then daytime care. One step at a time.
We know how harmful cigarettes are, well e-cig are many steps above in the harmful column. The vapor mist contains even more chemicals. I have also read about explosions from the recharging unit because the person wasn't paying attention to the device when re-charging the unit.
Are you and hubby still planning on moving to Florida? Now is the time to concentrate on the move, what to kept, what to donate, what to toss out. Are you moving yourself, or using a moving company? Keeping busy is very important.