Sorry to say, but this site has been so depressing for a few days. I thought I'd ask an average, everyday question....to make us all feel a little more normal today.
I made Eggplant Lasagna, and my BIL and SIL are coming for dinner. They leave for Cali tomorrow to see their beautiful grand daughter.
Sorry, sometimes we just need some REGULAR conversation.......or at least THIS caregiver does.
Dinner is last night's leftovers..canned food warmed up in the micro. I would have much preferred my Lean Cuisine chicken fettuccine but I didn't want last night's food to go to waste.
tried some apple juice with edna yesterday morning . not happ'nin . it was urine colored kerosene .
oh well . hepc meds notoriously wreck ones appetite . on one treatment attempt i got under 150 lbs from near 180 .
i think our bodys are ever evolving for good or bad . i already need a pill to shut my brain off at night . the federal gov is pushing sleep hygiene as an alternative to sleep aids . thats easy for a govt exec with a belly full of booze who just had a romp with a prostitute on a taxpayer travel expense card ..
ill drink some " malk " and ruminate about the army sos for a while i guess , then switch off to how bad that apple juice sucked ..
I remember reading one of those futuristic sci-fi space travel stories in which the space travelers would pop up a pill into their mouth - and tada! It was a Whole Meal! I was sooo envious of them. I remember I kept hoping that the scientists at that time would make a real food pill like that. I still think about it, hoping that it will come to fruition one day.
Book although I cook from scratch I'm not bothered about food and just shovel it down because I need to eat. I'll cook a batch of something and it it for days.
i had a real lunch at NH today , cold chicken sandwich this evening and im choking down a glass of ice water . i need to get strong and healthy to spite my enemies , real or percieved ..
you wish you were free , then you feel like your wishing your parent dead . its horrible but there really is a future . of course you cant visualize it , too much brain fog ..
You seem to have a little `sunshine`for another poster here (as he seems to have for you ... yay!) and power both of you!. It is your choice,however who`s going to take care of Mommie Dearest while you go visit in another countryÉ
.Time to put her in a NH and get a life, if that;`s even possible;e at our age,.
many years ago...they only want someone to take care of them LOL!!
Yesterday I made my version of chicken cordon Bleu. Today is left overs with corn on the cob and broccoli.
later in life one has to think about whether a partner is a liability or an asset . i think all relationships , even friends , is based on what each has to offer in a " trade pact " for lack of a better term .
it did remind me of me and my youngest son . if i let you destroy me ive failed as a parent . back up into the world a little bit till you can play by some fair rules . bluntman is doing great . hes really a h*ll of a good young man ..
little spider has been assigned the task of wrapping up a good sized water bug . big spider is working a web that extends to the crapper and my bare azz . he got too close to suit me , i knocked out a couple of his lines . he fell to the floor and took off up the side of the toilet with confrontation in mind . he was moving quickly and i much appeared to be the target . big spider is dead , little spider has plenty to eat for a while . im not sure what all the lessons are yet . big spider and i were allies against the hated house fly . im a trust but verify type of person . he breached our alliance . little spider ; choose your battles wisely or just dont eff with beard clip guy . whatever you want to take from it .
vilhelm grimm 2014 .
its a slow century b*tches , cut me some slack ..
I was cleaning the wee little apartment I had when my young daughter and I were living alone for a while, and was in the bathroom sweeping and such. I stopped for a moment, and in the silence, I heard, "scritch...scritch....scritch...tappity...tappity"
I'm thinking, "What the heck is that??" - so I start investigating. Nothing behind the door. No water dripping in the sink or behind the toilet or in the bowl. So I pull aside the shower curtain, and there in the bottom of the tub is the biggest freaking spider I've ever seen in my life. This thing was about 2 steps down from a tarantula as far as circumference of the legs, and pretty darn hefty in the body, too. I'm *not* a spider fan, and having a small child in the house, I was NOT letting this thing out of the tub where it might end up biting her (or me!). So, being armed with only my cleaning supplies, I grab the nearest thing I had available - my Pledge furniture polish spray. I sprayed....he ran....I sprayed....he ran again - up over the side of the tub and onto the floor...now I REALLY sprayed him, because he was headed my way, trailing lemon-scented foam behind him, running blindly in my direction because he was covered in the stuff. I emptied the entire can on his nasty butt, and still he kept coming.
He finally stopped at the bathroom door, having successfully backed me out of my own bathroom and into the kitchen, where I was looking for a big knife to use to end his pursuit. When I looked around the corner again, he had finally collapsed, legs splayed out, body flattened, and no sign of life whatsoever.
He fought the good fight until the last....when he went to spider heaven, smelling lemony-fresh and very, very shiny.
No i dont intend to be any kind of a martyr if mum was easy to be around things would be different BUT shes so negative and hard to please always was so i cant do anything to make her happy and yes it will be a home by the end of the year as she cannot live alone. I was away today shopping when i came home she had the shower running so waters been running for about 6 hours??
gotta be careful with ednas PIA . i clipped ednas bangs out of her eyes yesterday and a scathing letter was left for me today . it was left for me and any interested staff to read . i just wadded it and threw it in the trash and edna seemed satisfied with that but she wasnt . later i saw her fold it up and put it in her purse . shes quite pissed about it . nurse warned me to be careful cause edna and i need each other and PIA could make things rough . i understand . i also understand that pia has made the same number of enemies as ive made friends in the last 6 months . easily 25 people , some of them pretty powerful .. guess ill get the old spinecracker 2000 meat cleaver over here in the corner tonight . pia's sons are every bit as emotionally unstable as she is . aint nobody gonna start no s*it in this bunker.. am i right big spider ?
Kazz I've only known a**holes who are out for what they can get but I think that comes from choosing the wrong men. Spending a lifetime dealing with narc Mommie Dearest, it was drummed into me to jump through hoops of fire to please, give, give, give and it must have been so obvious to those who would take advantage - pretend to care and suck up anything and everything they could get.
At this point I can't bear to be touched by anyone, male or female and I love the single life, just me and my fur kids, peace and quiet in the country, mistress of my own little domain. Although I deal well with humans (though I don't like many of them) people seem to find me nice, funny and easy to get along with (my showtime face to the public at large ... and many of them shouldn't be!). I'm sure, on reflection, many of us have traveled this road.
Kazz I'm sorry if I came across mean about placing your mother. Only you can know when she'd be better off (and so would you) if she were able to receive care 24/7/365 in a structured nursing setting. My mother went to a lovely NH 18 months ago when I could no longer do it all, stay awake 24/7 and, with a hip replacement and bad back, I was unable to pick her up of the floor.
Only you will know when the time is right. Such a move will set you both free. She will have care around the clock and you can visit, perhaps regain a mother/daughter relationship long gone or, if there never was one (as in my case) just be there so she might find some happiness.at the end of her time.
Oh, where was I? Oh yes,dinner. Chicken, baby red potatoes fried over with onions/red pepper and some left over rutabaga (or swede as they call it in the UK)
Lived out here for 18 months but fresh air continues to knock me out. Been outside most all day and I'm knackered (there's a britishism for you lol - I grew up in the UK) and I need a nap. Usually nap early afternoon but I had to wait for the lawn tractor to be picked up for repair..
Don't have a couch big enough to nap on and if I go to bed I'll sleep for hours. Never ever had new furniture so maybe before winter I'll splurge for a sectional.
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