We are taking care of my 87 year old godmother, who I am her POA, and she has been like my mother my whole life, as my real mother was very ill since I was young and she passed away in 2003. I feel my godmother is in the early signs of dementia. Her father had dementia, and her younger brother just died from alzheimer's last year. She lived in an assisted living care/retirement center in PA for 3 years near me and I went to see her at least 2-3 times a week, but it was very expensive for the care I thought she was receiving, as I had to take her 4 times to the ER where she was admitted each time, due to the nurses at the retirement center did not notice she was sick! Since my partner and I are on SS disability ourselves due to chronic back problems and fibromyalgia, we moved to FL to get out of the Northeast cold winter months.
My godmother was never married, and her other brother only visited her 4 times in the 3 years she was at the retirement center, and her nieces and nephews never came to see her at all. When we decided to move, we never once thought of leaving her there by herself in PA, and since the bad experience she had at the retirement center, we decided to rent a house big enough for her to stay with us, and we have visiting nurses coming in 2 hrs a day to bathe and dress her.
Unfortunately, she has gone down hill very quickly and now needs someone with her 24/7. She has fallen 3 times and we have a monitor set up so I can hear her during the night if she tries to get up to go to the bathroom, but there are some nights she has me up 2-3 times and I am losing a lot of sleep. She got very upset with me when I bought side rails for her bed, as I am afraid of her falling. I have been so stressed lately, on top of my chronic back pain, I am now having stomach problems, which my doctor told me is due to stress.
I have family who just moved down here also from SD before we did, and they too were very close with my godmother years ago, but have not seen her in 5 years. At first they told me they would help me and watch her for us, but I feel since they see how she is now, they have been ignoring us and do not offer
any help. There are days I am ready to pull my hair out, and I hate to even admit it, but I am also starting to feel resentful as the only time we get out is to go grocery shopping or to Dr. appointments which means one of us stays at home with her, unless the appointment is for her. If I suggest to take her out with us anywhere, she tells us she does not want to go along, that she is too tired, or she wants to watch TV. I really do not want to put her in a nursing home, as I know she would not be qualified for assisted living any longer, and I am afraid of the quality of care she would receive, and yet if I take her to someone who does respite care, they want $120.00 a day, and with her already paying for nurses to come in everyday, it is getting very expensive! We just need some advise and help!
Thank You!
If you are seriously thinking about a nursing home, start looking now even before you are ready. We found out the hard way that there were no beds available for my mom. That was frightening knowing she had to be placed somewhere and there was nowhere available that accepted insurance.
Remember that if her money runs out you can apply for Medicaid to pay for the nursing home. Perhaps you should speak to an Elder Law Attorney and he could help with figuring out her finances and even help to apply for Medicaid.
I cared for my Mom for 14 years, and there were many times that I wanted to "run away" from everything and escape to a tropical island to be alone.
Being a caregiver can slowly grind you down and fatigue you both mentally and physically.
When things start getting to you, arrange to have some "me time" for yourself.
It will help get you back on track.
No one wants to put a loved one in a nursing home, but when you're reaching a point where you feel trapped and exhausted and like your life is no longer your own, it's time to explore options before your own health issues get worse.
It's tough, but in the long run she'll probably get better care than you and a couple of nurses for two hours can provide. And you''ll have your life back!
This is not selfishness, it's reality.
Try to place her where you can visit her regularly. She may adjust better than you think. She may be unable to see your point of view at first, but that may change.
Best of luck!
What I did not realize is that the children are young, 28 and 36. They both have children who are school aged. I now feel it was a lot to ask them to have to rearrange their lives to help us because the do have their own lives. One daughter is a single parent with two children (13 and 5 years old) The other daughter has three children (2, 6 and 8) Her husband is in the Navy and gone a lot. Our situation was stressing the girls and I would get angry. But once I stepped back, I understand because I was also the caregiver for my mother and they had to help me before they were adults.
Our new help, has helped me so I do not feel angry but understand they have their own family. The two daughters are his stepchildren. He has four older children and they do not even call to check on him. So again, I have to pay for the help, I need the help and I do not think about the money. We are renting a place that cost 3 times more than our home in NC and not as comfortable for either of us. We manage but we are going to go back home and I will seek assistance that I can pay to help me.
Be good to yourself and take care.
Do what's needed to make sure your elder is cared for properly while you are taking a break--whether it's for a couple hours, or a few days....you MUST take good care of yourself first, before you can do anything productive to care for others!
Good luck.
My mother is oppositional in general and particularly resists going anywhere. What works with her is to keep her clean, dressed and tidy at all times during the day. Then I just go to her and announce it's time to go out. In her case, the main problem was the anticipation and preparation. So now we just skip that troublesome step.
Blessings and luck to you and your loved ones in resolving this challenge.
It is not a bad thing to want to get away----not at all. I am currently caring for my 86 year old mother who is perfect fine mentally, but has severe spinal stenosis that causes her horrible pain, has affected her walking (she drags her feet because she has no strength, & it is extremely stressful to me. She doesn't listen to me----she does things she shouldn't do that exacerbate her back pain, like doing laundry & then hanging it on the clothesline, washing windows, pulling weeds in the yard, etc. I work during the day, so she does this stuff during the day & it is not safe, but she doesn't care. A few years ago, she fell on the ice & fractured her elbow & shoulder, had a total shoulder replacement & now she has very little movement in that arm. I QUIT MY VERY WELL-PAYING JOB IN NYC TO TAKE CARE OF HER. She doesn't get it that I cannot quit my job again if something happen to her, & if she falls & fractures the other arm, she won't be able to do ANYTHING. In this way, she is extremely selfish & it makes me very angry & resentful because she cares about nothing else but herself, doing what SHE wants to do, "to hell with the consequences". She complains & cries & tells all her friends & what's left of her family about how terrible her back is, but she conveniently does not tell them about the load of laundry she did & hung on the clothesline that day, or the bush she dug out of the backyard, or the windows she washed. I get very angry at that. She is doing things that make her back worse, not better. It's like I am dealing with a defiant little kid in an 86 year old woman's body.
So, I totally understand your need to get away for a while. You can only take so much before you break. And if you do break, your grandmother will end up in a nursing home no matter what because you won't be able to take care of her. I consider this my "cross to bear", since I never had any children. I guess there's a reason for everything.
PS we have nannycams for when we are not home, and the caregivers know it, if they dont like it, they arent good caregivers.
As getnstrong said, " Nobody wants to see the face of a "constant complainer" approaching their office, but a good nursing home is open to hearing legitimate concerns, and will address them."
So, place your grandmother and then be an active part of her care. Visit often and be visible. Make friends with the staff and only complain about real issues. Don't expect perfection but expect good care.
Do not feel guilty for what you are doing. Whether you pay for help to come in or place your grandmother in a nursing home, continue the care that you can give but don't destroy your own health.
Please keep us posted on how you're doing.
Carol