I've never connected the dots before between my health issues and my upbringing, but there must be something to it.
I'm now a year and a half into my 'recovery' from a lifelong OCD habit of hair twirling and pulling. I NEVER thought I'd be able to stop, but with therapy, meditation, and time, it's actually happening. Woohoo! :)
Thankfully, I have a mild case of psoriasis, which is pretty much treatable. This has also improved quite a bit in the past year or two. I remember the doctor asking me if there was any way I could remove stressors from my life, and at the time, I thought, "Huh????" But it IS possible, and it DOES help.
I've always been anxious and hyper aware of the emotional states of the people around me. This can be a good thing, but can also be a chronic source of anxiety/depression. Does anyone else out there feel this way?
My brother has had a slight stutter all his life.
Thinking about all of these phenomena makes me think, once again, that I'm NOT crazy, but my upbringing certainly was.
Why are you doing this visit? It seems that it's going to make you ill, both before and after. Please let us know more about your parent's condition and current living situation so maybe we can help bit more. You must take steps to ensure your own survival. Toxic parents will push you into an early grave if you let them.
My mother's in a nursing home and tomorrow is her birthday/ I've been filled with dread at having to visit so today I got it over with. A card, big bunch of flowers, loads of chocolates and specialty cookies, she was pleasant ("when you come next time I want this and this") and, after a suitable amount of time I fled. I'm so tired again and I'd like to nap, or at least get to bed really early, but then I'll be awake in the middle of the night unable to sleep. Baby steps, one day at a time.