Mom had a stroke Monday late morning. Was sent to ER and sent back. Can't swallow on hospice now. This ALF is superb. Brought a bed to me, some aids and nurses cried when they were told she wouldn't make it through the night. 24 hours she is still with me. They bring me food, snacks
I still can't give up. I lay her watching her breath. Constantly telling her how much I love her. I'm in denial even I know without being able to swallow this can't go on forever. I'm in shock and don't know what will happen.
Thinking of you....
lovbob
I can understand about shock and it's hard to deal with other than just waiting through it. Eventually reality has to creep back in because that is its ugly way.
There's no way to know what will happen...even 'the odds are' is not a certainty. There are 5 stages of grieving many of us go through and sometimes it starts before and sometimes after....
They are, not in any order:
Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression, and Acceptance
You can look these up sometime if you want to, and read more about them; they are many places online and also at the library.
These stages were studied and determined by Dr. Elisabeth Kübler-Ross and are called the Kübler-Ross model. They are not totally inclusive of all the possible feelings nor are all of them always experienced by everyone...there is no particular order that they follow, necessarily...but they are seen as a valid model for anyone who is either facing their own death or that of a loved one...or any other catastrophic life event.
I think you must be experiencing denial right now and it can be described as:
"Denial is usually only a temporary defense for the individual. This feeling is generally replaced with heightened awareness of possessions and individuals that will be left behind after death. Denial can be conscious or unconscious refusal to accept facts, information, or the reality of the situation. Denial is a defense mechanism and some people can become locked in this stage."
So just now that what you are going through is necessary and somewhat expected...I wish that you didn't have to face this but death is a part of life and not one of us is exempt.
I don't know if any of this helped but I will continue to send you good energy and that, I know, can't do any harm. GOD be with you and your mom during this time.