She knew the reason why she ask me that.
It had to do with someone she kept and realized she really didn’t want that job. All of her motives were wrong. Unfair to pin me like that. It’s weighty, nerve racking, binding, mentally disturbing, psychologically impacting. I’m trying to do what’s right, it affects my job. I don’t want to go to work. Nothing is natural for me. I get up when I get her dressed, I’m already tired. In Oct 1 brother decided he had a wk, then me. Still the buck has been on me, living with her ever since end of 2014. I’ve left my husband to attend to my mother, my life has been turned upset down. My peace is prayer. I beginning to not feel guilty if I do have to place her in a nursing home. I’m not God. I’m tired. I can’t do things when I want. If someone keep her I’m on a time clock, unfair. She was unfair!
I’ve always been obedient and my mother used that . What do you do in a case like this? She’s now where she’s not feeding herself properly. That’s extra on me... I’m do worn. I honestly believe I’m in a state of depression. I don’t want to go to work. It’s like I could throw in the towel.
There is also another option for those who need a smaller place, like a residential care home, or board and care. It feels like home, and they have people to talk to and help them.
See what works for you and mom. All the best.
Every visit to my dad and stepmom's takes at least 1 hour longer than I plan because we have to fix every little thing and complain about the same stuff as last time. They call over stupid stuff, or leave panicky messages and then forget why they called at all when I ring them back when I hang up from a client call.
My observation in your case, based on what you said, is that you need to just leave. Put her somewhere, or don't, and free yourself. No need to bury yourself in her life. You said, "I've left my husband..." I don't know if you mean you left the marriage or just physically left him behind, but the woman who may have raised you is NOT your priority at this point in your life. YOU are your priority, and only you can make that a reality.
My best advice is DO IT! Throw in that towel, go home and rebuild your marriage/your life/your mental health.