He has declined so much in the last few months. He doesn't always know me as his wife of 30 years and can become angry and combative. Then there are times when he is completely lucid. I decided to place him in memory care as I am totally exhausted and my health has suffered. I feel like 67 going on 100! I told him that I needed to heal myself and that we needed a break from each other due to the constant arguing, etc. I explained a respite week would work for both of us. So far he agreed - always subject to change however. He believes he'll be coming home afterwards. I plan on him staying there permanently. I am torn, conflicted and totally stressed about this. He is 83 and I can only afford to keep him there for 4 years and that's going through all of our savings and retirement accounts. I question whether this is a good idea or not but we live in a 2 story home and he refuses to stop going up and down the stairs, he tries to leave the house at all hours of the night and can be mean and nasty. I guess I'm answering my own question here as his safety is my concern as is my sanity. Is leaving him at the facility without explanation wise? Any suggestions would be welcome.
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You should speak to a Certified Elder Care attorney about the financial aspect of all this and how to apply for Medicaid on his behalf if he's still alive when the private pay funds run out. Or if it's better to go about this move in another way. These attorneys are a wealth of knowledge and want to help you not impoverish yourself.
Finally, if hubby is a war vet he may be entitled to Aid and Attendance benefits from the VA if he served in the military during war time. The attorney can guide you on how to apply.
You're doing the right thing because your life matters too. Dementia care often becomes unmanageable at home so Memory Care Assisted Living or Skilled Nursing care is the only viable option. Wishing you the best of luck with all of this.
You cannot assume care for an elder, especially one who acts out in this manner 24/7, when it would take an entire team to have any control.
I don't know what diagnosis you have, but this sounds very like FTD wherein he may be relatively OK one moment and violent the next.
If he will not voluntarily go to this, then he will likely have to go through EMS transport, and he is going to need memory care or nursing home, and very likely medication as well.
There is no need for you to assume some mantle of guilt. You didn't cause this and you cannot fix it and guilt requires causation. You are grieving because he is suffering and you cannot control it, cannot change it, cannot do it at all.
You are going to be busy enough now getting division of finances set up and getting him settled into care. He is likely going to need some trials at some medications that will help him while in care.
I am so very sorry. What a crucible this is.