My mom (84) has been going steadily downhill for the past few months. She has had 3 UTIs which landed her in the hospital and today her aide called to tell me there is blood in her urine again. (UTIs due to massive kidney stone that requires surgery, but she is never well enough to have the surgery). I have a constant knot in my stomach and am constantly fielding calls from doctors, nurses, insurance, etc. (She is at home with 24/7 care, in a wheelchair or bed all day.) I have been at my company for 7 years, but recently took on a new position that feels like a brand-new job. I have a new boss and there is TONS of work and things for me to learn. I did tell my boss that my mom has been ill and she was understanding, but, still, I am SO stressed out trying to keep up with everything. I'm an only child, so I'm it as far as managing my mother's care. WTF do you do in this situation? I am wrung out.
In addition, I was the main caretaker for my dad and it was very time consuming. I wanted to make sure that all calls got directly to me regarding his medical care and informed my boss that I may need to step out of the office if I got an urgent call, or possibly even leave should it be something emergent.
As a parent ages, they become a high priority and since you are an only child, I hate to say it, but the responsibility DOES fall on you. Some medical emergencies may seem small; yet when it comes to an elderly parent, even something as simple as a UTI can turn into many more serious health conditions in a very short time.
I guess what I'm trying to say (and may get much flack from) is this. Your mom's impaired health is a concern to you...and there may be days when you may have to take her to a medical appt; miss work due to a medical emergency regarding your mom, etc. You also need to be available during the day in case of a medical emergency, due to the fact that you are probably Medical Power of Atty and need to be there.
You should be there anyway. Sorry.
These things are never "planned", but can happen out of the blue. Sounds like you've notified your new boss about the situation, which is good. As mentioned before, you may also want to contact your work's Human Resource Dept. and find out what their policies are regarding FMLA. Some companies allow you to split it up (one week here..another one there); while other policies say you have to take it all at once.
Keeping you in my prayers.
It was recommended by our pulmonary doctor, who said it addresses people who have chronic problems, but aren't ready for hospice. Since then, I've found that nearly everyone I speak with in the medical profession has a different interpretation of Palliative Care.
Some agencies which also have hospice care and a home health care arm seem to have a more well developed program. One makes arrangements not only for periodic home nursing care but a visiting physician as well.
That could address the medical aspect. I think the fact that she's not alone but has support for 24/7 is a major factor, so think of that when you become anxious.
How confident are you in the 24/7 caregivers? Can they handle more, not necessarily interfacing with medical pros, but other tasks that now require your attention? I.e., how much can you delegate? Don't consider yourself a doer, but rather a manager and delegator. This could shift and substantially reduce the anxiety and responsibility you feel.
As to the various other issues that arise during the day:
Perhaps you could take your lunch hour at an earlier or later time and handle the medical calls then, and only then UNLESS it's an emergency. You might want to address this with the home care people if you have confidence that they can determine which calls and issues are emergencies and which are not.
Sometimes I just tell people I can't address this issue at the moment and will contact them after I've had a chance to review the situation.
I do know that it's often hard to treat everything as a potential emergency; I've been through that and had to learn to rationalize what the worst and best outcomes are, then decide whether the issue can wait until a higher priority has been resolved.
I can understand the anxiety that confronts you. I've battled with it myself and often am overcome. I've had to work hard to control it. What I find instantly relaxes me are garden magazines, photos of animals, especially kittens and puppies, or beautiful nature photos of magnificent mountains, meadows, and other natural wonders. I used to have these kinds of calendars at work and could glance at them periodically for some mental relief.
Even a 5 minute break helps relieve the anxiety. Since you're learning a new job, perhaps you can take a few minute every hour to just pretend you're working but allow your mind to roam to a calmer place.
Anyway, there is no way she is going back to a NH. That would kill her faster than any infection. Plus, I'd have to re-do the medicaid app for NH vs home care, which would kill me! Also, my office is very close to her apartment, so it's much easier for me to visit her regularly. The NHs in NYC are not close, and most of them are beyond bleak.
Gershun, you are absolutely right. I try to live in the moment and sometimes I turn off my phone. I figure a few hours isn't going to matter in terms of most of these calls. If it's a true emergency, her aide can call 911.
My job performance certainly suffered, but not enough that it mattered to others, just to me.
But my mom was in a nursing home. If she had a uti or even pneumonia, it was handled in house.
I know this probably seems like a choice between you being miserable and her being miserable. And she may well decline just as fast from the uti and stone combination in the nh. But there will be less wear and tear on her, going to ERs and hospital stays if she's getting round the clock nursing care.
Trite advice maybe, but sometimes we complicate things in our mind too much. If I had it to do over again I would have lived in the moment more and left control up to God.
I've been overwhelmed at work at times too with dealing with mom's care - it's exhausting and I make up for it by working long hours - I know of no easy solution short of turning away from it all, but then that's not going to happen
As one person told me - it won't always be like this
Rest when you can and be present as much as you can at work and make up the time missed even if something else such as household chores don't get done
Many people in your situation would be able to throw themselves into their work and shut out all distractions while at work. But all the phone calls must make that difficult for you.