When we moved her here she knew who we were. Now that her dementia has progressed to moderately severe she doesn't remember us anymore and doesn't want to live with strangers. There are no other family members that can take care of her, which means she would have to go back to the nursing home. After getting into an argument today over who I was and trying to defend myself saying I was her daughter, she thought I was lying and tried to leave. Even though she didn't get very far up the sidewalk (using her walker with me watching to make sure she was okay) and then me having to walk her back after she almost fell, I feel like this is a no-win situation anymore. Of course, every evening she wants to go home (home being her hometown in another state where she grew up with her mom and dad who are long deceased and there is nobody there anymore). For a while I was able to deflect by telling her it's too late and we'll talk about it tomorrow. Now all of a sudden she has started wanting to go home in the afternoon. So I try to ask her where her home is and how's she's going to get there. Of course, she doesn't know. Now she's starting to tell me she doesn't want to play any more games. Then today she started talking about her daughter, Lori, and I told her "I am Lori". She said, "No, I mean my daughter, Lori" to which I said, "I am your daughter, Lori." I know I probably shouldn't have argued with her about who I am, but I was just getting frustrated over the fact that she wanted to live with us 6 months ago and now she doesn't remember who I am and doesn't want to stay. Then she just got mad, grabbed two jackets and put them on one over the other, and headed out the door with her front-wheeled walker. I let her go because I knew that she wouldn't get very far without either getting too worn out to walk any further or possibly falling. And I thought, if she ends up falling then maybe she could go to a nursing home for rehab for a while! Otherwise, it's just going to drain all of what little money she has left which is supposed to go to my brother and sister who are both disabled. Anyway, I decided to watch her from the front porch just to make sure that she didn't get into any trouble, and sure enough she saw that the sidewalk was ending up ahead, so she tried to take her walker from the sidewalk down a slope to the curb so she could walk in the street. As soon as I saw that she was going to fall I ran up and helped her back onto the sidewalk and walked her the rest of the way home. Again, by this time she was getting worn out and started getting shaky and having difficulty walking. We made it back to the front porch and I let her rest for a while before we went back inside. I thought this would all be a distant memory by tonight, but then when I took her in to help her into bed she said that she wanted to leave because she "didn't get along with the other gal too well that was here earlier." I told her, "That was me!"
So my question is, do you think I should take her back to the nursing home or continue to try and redirect her to stay here? Has anyone else dealt with a loved one that doesn't remember who they are anymore and therefore does not want to stay with you? I'm finding that I am getting very frustrated over the whole ordeal and would appreciate any suggestions you might have.
In answer to littletonway, her stays in the nursing home were basically for rehab, although the last time we had to decide whether to leave her there or to move her in with us. They both were due to altered mental status and increased confusion due to a UTI first time and dehydration the second time. I believe that she became dehydrated at the ALF because she unable to function at a high enough level to eat her meals in the dining room without someone there giving her constant verbal cueing. Other than that she wanted to be with family and we thought that it would be best for her. That is why we moved her in with us. The doctor has since said that it sounds as if she has been having TIA's, or mini-strokes, and each time her vascular dementia progressively gets a little worse.
If your Mom was safe and comfortable in the nursing home, she is better off there. Was there a physical reason she left 6 months ago? Changing living arrangements can be very traumatic for someone with dementia.
Now you love the memory of the Mom of your youth and see that the woman she has become is well cared for and loved for her remaining days. You let those good memories comfort you but don't force them on your Mom. I wish you well!
If she could be content staying with you, even though you "aren't my daughter", that might continue to be feasible. Could you accept being a "nice lady named Lori" who is taking care of her while her relatives are on a trip? Have you tried just not arguing about who you are?
But if she is constantly agitated and not content to be with you, perhaps she would do better back in a nursing home. There she would not be expecting the staff to be family as they were years ago.
I have not been through this. I hope someone who has will share their experiences.