To start with I’m not big on sometimes trending diagnosis, but years ago when ADHD became more known I knew I had it. Likewise ADHD is clearly thundering through the family…at a recent celebration of life a second cousin and I were ticking off family members who had it and had a good laugh! This year I was more formally diagnosed which came as a big relief because I suddenly felt less ‘stupid’…
All things considered I do pretty well with ADHD and organizing life stuff albeit at great effort. However I’ve been the sole person in charge of my parents’ decline & care & EVERYTHING. The constant tasks and hugely complicated health care system and emergencies etc…on top of my own life feels like ADHD kryptonite. I feel like my brain is constantly being hijacked. After 6.5 yrs and counting I feel mentally totally fried. Things are managed but at great cost it feels.
Any other ADHDers in the caregiving hot seat? I don’t need any advice but would like to hear from others in a similar boat who understand the challenges.
And THANK YOU everybody!
(PS of course my mom has ADHD of the super hyper variety…throw dementia in the mix….hooboy…)
I started out strong, and as organised as someone with ADHD can be, but things kept getting forgotten even then, 4 years ago. BUT I'm also the only one who was willing to even try to do it, so I work on forgiving myself for all the things I forgot to do along the way. (Sorry Dad that I never got you Red Lobster before you died!) Every day there's an "oh crap I was supposed to ... " moment!
Now I'm at the point that I just don't want to deal with any of it. I know it's partially because my Mother is nasty and cruel and demanding, but it's also because my brain is just fried. To the point that I just allow my mind to shut out the things I don't want to deal with. Like paying the bills (not good!) or arranging Mom's appointments (sigh).
The constant tasks are what does it, I think. You FINALLY figure something out or solve an issue, and then there's a pile of new or recurring ones to deal with.
You need a break. A long break. I hope you are able to take some time to renew your mind!
I think adhd & elder responsibilities are like being a handy person whose job is to fix and maintain an old falling apart house. You have a full set of tools but they’re Fischer Price and IKEA. So you do the job and the house is fine but you get tired because it’s a lot of nonstop work and your tools are crap. Then one day your tools break because, well, they’re Fischer Price and IKEA. ( Okay I love cheesy metaphors…)
It helps to know others get it but I’m sorry some of us are going through this. Blessings, all!
I can see where Caregiving can be overwhelming for you. ADHD is considered a disability.
For me I definitely have the. ADHD “ thinking ALL the thoughts everywhere all the time “ but also limited mental bandwidth for what I can retain. The constant, incessant influx of tasks, paperwork, medical info, scheduling , calls, etc….etc… feels like it’s hijacking my available brain space constantly. I also have some learning problems which are ADHD related, I’ve learned to work around them by developing my own goofy systems, but the elder care/health care system has its own rules that just kurfuddle me. I Do the Things that have to be done, and not ‘poor me’ but I feel it’s a great effort to be the center of this spiderweb of caregiving duties, at great cost of losing cognitive space for other areas of my life. After 6.5 yrs I feel completely brain fried. There’s no reset - even when I got covid mom had a huge emergency and I ended up co-ordinating that mess.
I hope that all makes sense. Like I told my bf, “ I feel like I’m doing what I’m worst at , and I do a pretty good job, but at a huge cost. “ I am exhausted I guess. I’d love to stop feeling bombarded by these tasks and duties and get some cognitive space back.
Thanks for getting it, and I will have to check out that podcast!
I've never really stopped to consider how my ADHD impacted the situation, so its interesting that you bring this up! It's rather that my ADHD symptoms have been exasterbated by the situation and it has effects on other parts of my life. I do my best to remain as patient, compassionate and gentle as I can with her. My phone calendar helps me manage a lot of my temporality-based symptoms. It just feels like crisis after crisis and I never get a moment to actually process it all before I'm faced with another crisis. Were there certain symptoms of ADHD that you found were difficult in relation to caregiving?