Plz could someone help me out little more having hard time excting that this is my mom when i need my mom to still be my mom isnt that silly for me to say and feel at 53 i feel so alone she is the last member of my immediate family now what i cannot believe if i still outlive her i will be sitting here without brother father and mother and growing up i was the one who was very sick for years i feel like now i put her in respite care for five days and instead of getting things done here i sit shaking my head not knowing or feel like doing anything with myself my imaginiation is going crazy i feel lost
I agree with Ruth. You are depressed and do not seem to take heed of any advice many have given you on this site. Instead of starting innumerable threads and rephrasing your needs for attention, you need to go see a doctor. Good Luck.
Your 125 word stream-of-consciousness post is obviously a cry out for help. The problem is that you don't want to move. It's understandable to be confused and take a moment to find your bearings, but you're frozen; a prisoner of your own thoughts. I guess your life has always been dictated a close-knit family, but you've pretty much run out of relatives and it's time to sharpen or develop social skills so you can re-integrate with the community at large. The only stumbling block is that first you need to find out who YOU are and what YOU want to do with the rest of your life.
You can't change yesterday, so what matters is what you do from now on.
Good luck my sister. Please don't hole up and fall off the map because our words might hurt your feelings somehow. We're telling you what you need to hear because we do care.
Like it or not, you're stuck with us. Welcome to the AgingCare family.