I am unable to find this thread so I will start a new one. I am so angry and have been for the last 3 days. NOthing unusual has happened to make me this way. I am angry all the time but I usually can control it. I want to pull my hair out and break anything I can get my hands on but I won't. I am having my boys and their girlfriends for dinner in addition to a family friend for spaghetti today. I made a chocolate cake and the oven is off and so I burned it without really knowing. I looked at the bottom and it was so burned that I just threw it away. This is not the first cake I have burned in the oven but at least they were edible. When I get like this I have trouble hiding it and I get a nasty tone and guess where it goes on my poor mom. I don't mean it but I am so trapped in this house that I am going crazy. The caregiver came again yesterday and mom said she liked her which is good so I left the room and went to my room where I spend a lot of my time. I cannot leave yet until all is settled with my car but when I can I hope to God I come back. Its too hot to walk anywhere so I stay here all the time. I know this is not unusual and everyone is going through it, I just thought that if I expressed it maybe somehow I might feel better. Thanks for listening.
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And I started to hate the tag 'temporary' that folks would put on it. A few months is temporary, then you find yourself pulling pages off the kitchen calendar like a prisoner in a jail cell.
I started gardening to save my sanity. It allowed me to go play in the dirt, beautify my surroundings and still be close by to fix meals, meds etc. & respond in case of an emergency. It was also calming.
And what Captain said is true... after it's over - your life will resume; but it will be in a different time zone. Or should I say 'life zone'. Kinda like 'Back to the Future' :) And you will find yourself looking at people, places and things with a different set of eyes (like Captain indicated) because your priorities will have shifted.
But the chunk of time used to give care, also left me (and many many others) at an age of being unemployable. I don't know when your Care Giving Safari began, but try to stay in contact via emails, chat, text and LinkedIn with former co-workers. Hopefully it will help your re-entry into civilization.
Right now - I'm struggling with my 'filter' as they call it. When my mom passed a week ago - my filter left with her.