It is mindboggling to me the selfishness I have learned in not only family but "so called" friends as well... as family is no more in our life, in my case, all I have are friends and I have to adjust and accept or I will have no friends.
It is not their burden, but I just hate the false "lemme know if there is anything I can do" and then when you finally break down and ask, they are too busy getting their nails done or ????. You get to see and hear all the fun they are having...thru this lovely internet n Facebook. I'm like, "looks like a blast, maybe next time lets throw the BBQ over here. sure be nice to see you all" and crickets... anyway one of my last touchy subjects trying to work thru so I don't hurl myself off a cliff..hahahha
Family is another story tho...they are the ones who are "supposed to" be there! and that's why we feel so disappointed!!
Thanks for the support mamaduke!
I had spent couple days time down in the area where I want to go move, with my friends, while mom was in hospital! I had a real neat experience! I was stressed out, neck arm in pain from it, sweaty no makeup in borrowed unmatching clothes...basically disheveled. One of the artist I follow and like very much passed me in the grocery store, we are facebook friends but have never spoke, etc... anyway he looked up at me in my horrid state and had a warm smile and a nod hello for me. Just made me feel or confirmation, that is where we belong, in a warm loving community!!! Alcyon Massive, he gets radio play here and his stuff is good if you like reggae/dub/dance style...can Youtube him..Aint it fresh and Oregon sunset some of my fav's! Good to be home tho and routine started.
Terrible news yesterday tho, a dear sweet woman and friend had an accident and passed away. I met her thru Sr Companion program...she came 3hrs a week to sit with ma so I could get out and shop. well I waited for her all morning yesterday all ready to go and she never showed...concerned and called around finally her daughter showed up telling me she was gone, had fallen and hit her head at home nite before and was gone! just like that... so sad! we had become close as good eggs are hard to find out here! I will miss her. Our community will miss her! she was a great lady, very loved and active to the end! her daughter is beside herself, they were very close!!!! lived next door...she went to check on her when she did not answer phone. I just realized too just now, she was gonna start sitting with ma for me in the eve's for extra fun money so I could maybe have an evening out with friends, go see a show, etc...well I am more concerned with her family and loss of a wonderful person than that.
I did clean out my facebook account to rid of those I do not interact with! no need!
Its hot today so I am taking a lil nap next to recharge, it is busy days, till I get ma's health sorted out!
Hope you all are having a good weekend!
Juju
God is good when we open up to it. Glad you have a chance to find someone new for your mom.
Hold tight to your faith! God has a plan and you are in it. Maybe he is saving up all the good stuff just for you...for when your done serving mom for him. :) I find Movies and T.V. shows I can get lost in for distraction. Books too but it's harder to read. When we get cabin fever I just put mom in the wheelchair and we go for a walk or maybe put her in the car and go to a park or some place that it doesn't matter what we look like! Hang in there jujubean! God got you!
I was trying to get out is ....I am glad someone with such character is not around my mother anymore. it worked out perfect! and I didn't have to lift a finger...except to find new!
And no she was thru SR services...that is another thing that just blows me away...after mom fell I called my worker, she is a piece of work there but another day. anyway I wanted to know what kind of training these providers are put thru...heres the story there "anyone can apply to be a CG, take a 4hr training course and then unleash them on the frail sick elderly....it appalls me this entire system. anyway....that's the kinda help we get, no thank you but I have to ...least new gal seems sharp. we will see!
You can rant all you want or need, I will listen. It is so damn tough and you need an outlet too. Your not alone. =}
I have actually ranted all over this darn site everywhere, had to purge all this anger and make room for the new challenges...I am scared tho tomoro we go see ortho specialist and ?? I am scared to death but so much better equipped to deal with the situation now! OMG what a weekend...I dislike hospitals!
that is her response...i cannot fathom the hearts these people have! she should have gave me notice tho is my only problem the rest don't let the doorknob hit ya!!!
i need a nap!!!
I tested my local friends and Jaw was on the ground litereally...when the phone rang saying Im on my way with some honeycrisp apple wheat shock top, and we sit on porch...i was too tired for that tho 90 deg....sat lookin at my jungle in the a/c.
But also-reconnected with an old friend from home with health issues, developed a relationship with her sis and friend both have cancer. Over one of my dry humor statements that sis actually took offense too initially, now we are all buds and supporting eachother!!!
I do have to complain about the closest neighbor tho.....see's us n wheelchair all the time, only a smile n a wave, and ambulances come n go....oh well! I envited them to a bbq when they arrived and have not been reciprocated ...oh well....
thing are lookin up!
This is where the cream is gonna rise
This is what you really didn't know
This is where the TRUTH don't lie.
YOU FIND OUT WHO YOUR FRIENDS ARE
Somebody's gonna drop everything
Run out and crank up their car
Hit the gas, get their fast
Never stop to think...What's in it for me?
Or it's way too far?
They just show on up, with their big ol hearts
YOU FIND OUT WHO YOUR FRIENDS ARE!
Tracy Lawrence =}
JuJu Bean, we seem a lot alike. Keep your head up. You are not alone!
OK so I took my rant to facebook and OMG...A girlfriend hopped in the car and drove 1 mile with beer and helped me with mom...I am exhausted. I don't think I coulda done it with out her now. We laffed..we have now devised a plan to put my scuba gear and a rope on her son and have him mow my waist high lawn. so I can get some Vitamin D, as I will not. I have one sinkhole already and refuse to walk in my yard...furthurering this prison.by the way. anayway we laffed forever on that one...flippers!
I am a Military spouse 17 years, hubby is a LTC and we are stationed in Tampa at SOCOM. I go home and visit with dad a couple times a year for a few weeks.. But I have now been told I am not allowed to see him. No restraining order, so the POA, is just puffing out his chest because legally he can't not do that.
Anyway I have been hurt so much and cried so much that I do not call dad anymore. THEY WON! I send cards, but I feel he could call me, he is not that bad. I had to give up my father and my relationship with my father because my uncle is mean, spiteful man. I have a feeling, that it is about money and it will be the 2 of them that have things cooking. Very sad....I have no family, all because one person does not like me....I only spent 4 days with him.....My brother had told him things that were not true, and a 60 year old would rather listen to him, than to give me a chance!!BLAH
“The most basic of all human needs is the need to understand and be understood. The best way to understand people is to listen to them.”
Ralph G. Nichols
Man FAITH and PRAYERS are really paying off, and this friend who located up few years ago, has shown me that...we laff cuz haven't seen each other in 14ys and it is like we never were apart except for she got 2 boys now 7,12 and we say crazy there was a reason we were brought back together!! I wish I could see her more...we only talk cple times a month and seeing 4-5 times since here.but everytime it is like old times I feel so at home comfortable and truly appreciated with her and she luvs my mama genuinely. you can see it oozes out of her. ..I will call more tho .....I love quotes too...so this is the one for the day! God helps those who help themselves!
but this type of support makes it possible to feel validated...and we are actually working out a solution to the problem...
I have been wanting for years to go to a reggae festival...turns out this friend had recently moved from my home state to this state, not 2 miles from the event...so we are working a plan to have her watch ma as I go and she is gonna call me on cell when mom is poopy...I still have no one to go with but I can go...1/2 the battle!
AMAZING WHAT 2 CAN DO WHEN THEY PUT THEIR HEADS TOGETHER!