For all she has done to help me in the past, and what she has done she always had a motive !for! nothing was ever done by her out of the kindness of her heart, she always helped me financially so I would be indebted to her and always have to come back whether I want to or not! any advice or comments to help me deal with the lethalness, and low self-esteem I feel non-stop, besides therapy? which I already go to! I think I need it though 24/7 round the clock, just not possible!
thanks to whoever reads this and comments!
I've said it before in this forum and I'll say it again: we shouldn't bring children to the world and then charge them for it! When they are small, sometimes we can't wait for them to grow up and be gone; when they do, we send them on guilt trips for having left the nest. When they come back because we need them, we don't admit we've been flipping the script on them with all that "you owe me this," "if it hand't been for me ...," blah, blah, blah. Then we want them to pay rent, help with the expenses, cater to our every whim, and take them to Judge Judy when they don't want to be caregiving slaves anymore.
To all those saintly parents and martyrs still putting their children through a rollercoaster of emotions with the constant guilt trips I have only one thing to say: grow up, and GET OF THE F____G CROSS!!! ... SOMEONE ELSE NEEDS THE WOOD.
How's my andropause coming along?
-- ED
I also had another thought for you....You might be helped by some medication of some kind to improve your energy level and mental health. I take anti-depressant medication and it is a huge help to me. You could talk to your doctor and discuss this. You mention therapy and that's good too. But I guess the biggest thing I feel when I read your post is that you are a good, good-hearted person, and you deserve to be treated well, and to treat yourself well. Please don't feel guilty about carving out time to refresh your own spirit. If I offered to visit my father every day, I'm sure he wouldn't argue against it, but I feel it is better for him and for me if I don't. You are a sweet gal.....take care of Susan. (-: