Every day I experience so much guilt. I thought I was doing the right thing, now I am feeling major guilt for my daughter and granddaughter, I feel guilty about not being able to do this 100% on my own, etc, and I do realize that this is not my doing. She did not wish to have Alzheimer's and I didn't wish for my own medical issues. Just venting, no question, but I know that we are virtually in the same crap boat! And I do so appreciate a listening ear!
In a calm moment, ask yourself if this is truly the way you want to live out your life. Be honest with yourself and don’t consider anyone’s opinions but your own. You’ve said your husband “has things to do”. Well, that’s just great, but I’m certain that someone in answer to one of your posts has said that dear hubs needs to man up. Your guy has dropped the ball. Right on your foot. Put on your big girl pants and if you feel it is, say to him “Enough!” You have to speak up for yourself. No one else will.