I feel so lost that I do not know me anymore let alone act like myself, to point where I do not like me I feel I cannot find myself or do anything but st and now Christmas is here I feel horrible being feeling like a scrooge but HONESTLY CANNOT HELP IT I FEEL LIKE TAKING DOWN TREES THROWING AWAY AND WITH THE CLOTHES ON MY BACK NOTHING ELSE AND WALKING AWAY ON FOOT ANDE JUST KEEP WALKING AND NOT LOOK BACK I HAVE NEVERE FELT THIS WAY BEFORE.
You must let someone help you. Make the call, make the appointment.
You've gotten a wealth of advice, most of it boiling down to taking time for you and getting some level of support. I definitely understand how you feel: hopeless, anxious, sad, exhausted...there were days I wanted to pack my things and put my entire life in the rear view and start over someplace. I didn't, but boy did I ever imagine this scenario! While therapy, exercise, etc all could help you, I just want you to hang on and take things a step at a time. If it helps to share, I got to a point (like you) where I was absolutely at my breaking point. Although my careguving circumstances didn't change, I worked to compartmentalize my mind: when I was in the caregiving role, I was there 100%; when I was at work, I focused just on that. It was hard, but it helped me separate and distance myself from the burnout I felt so that I could function in other parts of my life. It was hard, but it did help me. I know it's hard being in a dark place--but, there is the possibility of light and hope with each new day.
we all understand wanting to walk out. most of us can't. while pam got slammed for being cold and uncaring, trying for an equivalence to other horrors most of which we will never see, it will end up as practicality. Fate can be quite uncaring. We are still alive, I am alive for which I am glad. SANDY NEEDS A BREAK!!. And sometimes others arms have to be twisted before help is forthcoming. Sadly in many cases, there is little help from other quarters, other quarters that could da** well help if they would get off their own tails. Hang in there Sandy, pam,
but then, I am also regarded as blunt and cold at times as well.
I just put Mother to bed and thought I would check emails before dragging myself up the stairs.
Trusting we can all have a better year than 2014 has been (for me, anyway). On top of the ongoing "mom issues" I have added health problems of my own.
I was recently diagnosed with diabetes (my dad was diabetic and at the tender age of 65 it caught up with me). Doc said stress probably triggered it. She told me I need to eliminate stress. I sat there and laughed. She began writing a prescription for a stronger anti-depression med. I never filled it.
If I don't laugh, I cry. That gives me wrinkles. :)
Sandy, you will definitely find love and support from those participating on this site. We are all paddling the same boat of frustration. Hang in there.
As we all know! But still we persevere! I am happy today and I feel stronger than I did yesterday but ultimately Sandy we all find a way to continue to put one in front of the other and some how we have to believe that " this too shall pass". Hugs and much love