How do I stop arguing with my aging mom who is depressed. I feel angry that this is a state of mind she seems to be choosing. She makes up stories about her (and our life) rewriting them to be depressing and/or critical of everyone in the family just so she can eother feel superior or depressed about her "awful" life. She came as an immigrant and worked hard no doubt. But she has lived and extraordinarily privileged life...with caring children and a husband she NEVER appreciated but who is still talking care of her. She is so narcissistic and conitnues to see life through her own lens. She can turn ANY event into death or negativity. For example, she sees a happy family with a new baby and dog, she tells them to keep an eye on the dog because it could kill the baby. My father takes her laundry upstairs and all she comments is that, "he always does that, waits for everything to be folded and then he takes it upstairs." Meanwhile she could never take them upstairs herself and would be insulted if he tried to help her fold the clothes and accuse him of belittling her. In other words you can't win with her. She is ALWAYS the victim. I feel like my I can't stop myself from correcting her delusional memories or accusations but all it does it make things worse and then I feel guilty. HELP!!!
You can't change her but you can control your own behavior. Can you, for example, minimize the amount of interaction you have with her? Just roll your eyes and leave the room when she starts on her revised version of history? Detach and keep your distance?
There are a lot of posts on this site by persons dealing with narcissistic parents. I hope you'll find them useful.
She refuses help in the house (I live with her now, in her lower level, but I'm nearly a prisoner since she's not safe alone), she won't go to a care facility, and so forth.
All of these things frustrate me and sometimes anger me and...I've started to detach myself from her when she gets like this. I walk away. Say to her, "fine, be that way" and I walk away. I have to. Unless she's in imminent danger of some kind, I...just...walk...away.
And no matter what I do or say or put in place to keep her safe, she circumvents it. Until she's so far gone that she's truly incompetent, is unaware of her surroundings much of the time, and I can emotionally deal with placing her into a facility, I have to kind of let things go for my own sake and deal with the clean-up afterward.
I just said to someone that, every time she has an incident (she just broke her collar bone after going out to water flowers at 3 a.m.; now she's in a rehab facility), a piece of her mind is lost forever.
Well, every time we have an argument about her not eating, going outside without telling me, etc., a piece of me is lost forever too, now.
So I simply don't argue anymore unless it's truly life-threatening, and I happen to catch her at whatever the behavior is. I don't always succeed but I'm getting better at it.
2.Accept that you do not have the power to change another
3.Take courage and change your behavior: focus on ways you may be able to help your Dad who has to live with the negativity daily. Focus on positives with him, a good joke-an uplifting family or community story-a brief stroll outside-some calming music etc.
4.When Mom spews her negs, excuse yourself and leave the room or the house.
5. Take things ONE DAY AT A TIME rather than focusing on the rest of HER days that probably will never change.
6.Let Go--and Let God!
My mother has her own reality. The trouble with her reality is that I am always the bad guy in it. She can take things and twist them to make herself right. If I have an idea on how to do something better, she'll adopt the idea as her own, then chide me for not doing it her way all along. Talk about crazy making! Arguing is pointless because she is always right and her reasoner is broken. So I just walk away. I walk away a lot.
Thank goodness for the gym. The equipment there is so good for working out frustrations. Maybe I can get the fireplace fixed and learn to chop wood. :)
God bless you on your journy and feel free to reach out.
Wishing everyone well!!!