Its been 7 years of prison. I'm alone, I'm tired and I cant put her in a home. I'm done. Toast. Forget this 'caregiver' thing where I have to take care of myself- I cant! There isn't anyone to help me. She is not Nursing Home material. She is too ill with too many health issues including peg feeding. If I put her in a Home, she'll be dead in a few months with the kind of care they give. I have no relatives. Its me and only me. She is pretty much bedridden. I'm afraid to put her on Medicaid because what LITTLE money is in the bank is what we pay our bills with! I cant give that up to Community Medicaid! I am on disability too and don't bring in any money. I'm thinking of putting in an add in Craigslist for someone to live with me for free rent and pick up the slack here so I can put my head on my pillow. I'm now 62! This started when I was 53! I'm sad, depressed, and too tired to go OUT to get therapy, or see a doctor. I just want to got to bed when I have any down time. I don't know how to handle this.
My mom would be dead several times over if she WERE NOT in a nursing home.
First thing, make a list of Nursing homes in the area and, via phone, get her on waiting lists. Start her Medicaid application. Talk to the folks at your local Area Agency on Aging about local resources.
And when Mom is settled into her nursing home, go out and do some volunteer work to gear up your skills. You said you can't work, but if you stand back and look at the past 7 years, you WERE working, just not getting paid.
I would start with the social worker at the nursing home he's in now, to find out if there are nh 's with similar services closer to her home.
One thing is for sure you have to start investigating the truth about medicaid, looking at homes or help, look at the hospices etc. for one thing I do know if you keep doing what you are doing then absolutely nothing is going to change. And, whether you like this or not you NEED change and YOU are the only one who can activate that. So whilst I have every sympathy with your tiredness, you MUST set down a plan and STICK TO IT. You must Francyn or it wont be mum in a NH it will be you in a coffin, and trust me that is no solution for you or your Mum.