I've been feeling very depressed lately. Reality has kicked in and I'm so aware of the fact my life is winding down. Driving 90 miles round trip to visit Mom in the nursing home (so depressing, and she cries and wants to come with me when I leave), bad back, feeling old and achy myself (and yes, have been to the doctor(s), worrying about how much longer hubby and I can keep the house up, children living 1000 miles away and knowing no children will be there for us, we don't want to go to them as good chance they will move in the next five years, etc. I just got my letter about 401k deemed distribution requirement. Felt like a kick in the teeth. I'm trying to enjoy things, but have lost my ambition and feel pretty negative.
Anyone else feel like this? I really don't like it, don't want to feel this way.
I feel I will never have the great 25 year retirement my parents had, as my parent never had to care for their own aging parents. My parents had no idea the stress they were putting me though and it has taken its toll on my health and outlook on life. I hadn't been on a vacation going on seven years, and now that I can, I am too tired to go anywhere :P
This weekend I was thinking the same thing about my house. It's beginning to be too much for me to handle... my sig other isn't handy so I do most of the fix it things, but now I don't like climbing ladders, etc. And the snow, my gosh almost 2 feet, I feel like I want to move in with Dad as his apartment is so nice and cozy :)