For some reason, tonight I just decided to check into pre planning the funeral for my Mom. This is something I did not plan on doing. But I decided that it is better that I address these issues before I become too emotional to deal with it. Now I am feeling guilty. Why am I feeling so guilty??? I know my brother will want to have input but I felt like I needed to get the initial inquiry out there and face it, rather than wait until a time when I am too beside myself to plan something that would be truly meaningful . I pray it is a long time off...still the guilt is overwhelming.......
It is so much better to plan for things in the future than if it becomes present. You are doing just what you need to do. Major hugs while you go through this.
You did the right thing and you'll be so relieved that you made such a prudent decision.
I don't mean this to sound rude or awful, but my sister in law has not been to see my Mama in over two years...even though she goes right past this street weekly. It is unimagineable to me...I will never....NEVER understand it...and I know that when the time comes for planning she will probably be sitting there thinking she is going to be involved in the planning. She will not be. My Mama was sweet and loving to her as was our entire family and how she could abandon my Mama and me during this time is hard for me to get past....but even in that, I know Mama would say....just feel sorry for her, she obviously has problems and you don't know what burdens she carries....My Mama is a lot nicer and more forgiving then I am ...
I guess I avoided it as it has made me feel like I am rushing someone along. Now that I am in the midst of it, it feels more like I am just getting things in order and when it is needed (hopefully a very very long time down the road) it is handled...