My mother has severe arthritis and mobility issues, uses a wheelchair and potty chair, often has to get up during the night, and has vascular dementia (so far mild). She's had one minor stroke and more falls than I can remember, so she cannot be left home alone safely. I am the only child and sole caregiver. After several years of escalating health problems, I'm thinking of hiring a live-in caregiver at some point. Right now I have her in respite because I was out of town, and to be honest, I am not looking forward to bringing her home because I have been overwhelmed. Since I started caregiving, my own health has deteriorated (now am on two meds for hypertension when it was fine before and my dr recommended an antidepressant). I've read about people who are not cut out to be caregivers and I am afraid that I might be one of those people but promised that I would take care of her. I've been making do with some home help but can see the time coming when, if I can find the right person, a live in caregiver would let me have some kind of life for myself and relieve a lot of the stress. Thanks!
My Dad now has 24 hour around the clock caregivers. The caregivers are through an Agency which is licensed, bonded, insured, and has workman comp in case one of their employees gets injured on the job. It's extremely expensive.
Why I chose the Agency route is because no one person can be on-call 24 hours a day, 168 hours a week. The night caregiver is required to stay awake the whole time. But that caregiver gets to go home to rest, so to be fresh for the next day's shift. If you hire an "independent contractor", then your Mom would need to add a "workman's comp" rider to her homeowner's insurance.
Now, you need to see what will be the cost. Mom staying in her home with 24 hour paid care.... or living in Assisted Living in her own apartment with Staff on-site 24 hours. You will probably find Assisted Living to be much cheaper. In fact, I am now looking that route for my own Dad to transfer from Independent Living over to Assisted Living, as 24-hour care will shortly break the bank.
I am also terrified of the progression of dementia... I have noticed with each new fall a tiny part of my Dad's memory disappeared with that fall. It is such a tough thing to wrap my brain around as Dad was always pretty sharp. Couple months ago I started to notice "sundowning" which really rattles me.
Don't give up the gym... it's a great release.... I use to be a gym rat but had to give that up back when my parents stopped driving. I became their wheels and any free time was out the window :(
Memor care is considered assisted living and despite the cost they do very little to help her - so now I have private agency hired caregivers with her there 12 hours a day and it's still not enough - we will go broke soon if I can't find a way to cut back on private caregivers or find a secure cheaper facility
I made a promise and I will do my best to keep it, though, and pray for the strength and grace to see me through, and try to hold on to something of myself.
I feel such guilt for admitting that I do not like caregiving. Sometimes I wonder if I am a selfish monster for feeling resentful that my life as I knew it is gone.
I do want to make her last years as pleasant as possible. I love her, and she has been very good to me, but still, I feel overwhelmed, stressed, and depressed.
Yes I'm familiar with the Medicare site -memory care facility is private pay though and is highly rated so daunting to think about what other facilities might be like
Thanks
Your feelings are normal especially if you're on your own - long before my mom had dementia I said as long as she could get herself to the bathroom she could stay home but that was then and this is now - I feel terribly about her situation and some days I think maybe I should try once more at home but then one of her sitters will not show up or I'll have to work late and I return to reality
I have a friend who takes care of her mother with Alzheimer's with the help of a caregiver while she is at work - her motto is no regrets and no guilt - I haven't reached that level of acceptance yet
If you take good care of yourself, I agree, you are helping your daughter........
Be nice if all people were as considerate as you.
No guilt
No regrets
I will try to embrace those words............
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