I have taken care of both parents for 8 years 7 days a week while still holding down a full time job.
I stepped up and moved in with my parents for 2 years 7 days a week when my dad was ill.
Now my dad has died suddenly, and my mom is very ill. I told both sisters I would move in four days a week to help out but want to be able to go home 3 days a week (every other day).
One sister comes on weekends because she has to take care of her child. The other sister pretends to be constantly sick and goes into high drama to get out of the AGREEMENT.
I feel after all I have done, I should not have to do it alone again. I have told them exactly how I feel. They make excuses and call me a martyr. I feel like I am fighting not to be pushed around. They actually demanded I retire early which I will not do. Neither of them has full time jobs.
Both sisters resent doing more. I have not gone home in 13 days because of all their excuses. I have argued and discussed everything but it gets no place. I fear my sisters running away like they have done in the past. I can’t take it. The older sister acts like my boss and tries to micromanage me. I truly hate her. One day she called me at work to say she thought my mom was dying because she took an hour nap instead of 20 minutes.
HOW DO I COPE?
The point is, you need to think of yourself as alone in dealing with this and explore every possibility of getting help for your mom and yourself. You don't have to communicate with your sisters or accept calls even. It's not worth expending your energy. I am constantly learning.
Do yourself a favor and invest some time in checking into what local resources are available. Depending on your mom's illness, she may be eligible for hospice. Your local office on aging may be of help and you may be able to be linked so you get more care. There also is a caregiver support respite program which your local Area Agency on Aging should know about.
I really hate that martyr BS line...so typical of those who can't or won't help. The "well, I would have but it wouldn't have been good enough/you wouldn't have like it" etc.
Please just hear me out. Not because I know everything. I certainly don’t. No one does. All I can tell you that I burned out. Everyone who has said to you that this is ‘more than a one person job’ has said a mouthful and more. It’s true and obviously you know it or wouldn’t be reaching out on this site.
Plus you have a full time job! Caregiving is a full time job and you work outside the home to support yourself on top of it! Wow!
Stop expecting or even asking for your siblings to all of a sudden show a ‘change of heart.’ You know they won’t. They are going to do what they are going to do. You have no influence on them. No one has the power to change others.
As long as you are in the middle of this you will be blinded by it. Take it from me when I tell you that I was blind, deaf and mute in my circumstances while trying to ‘do it all.’ Don’t believe me? Ask anyone on this site what a hot mess I was. They can tell you.
Sounds like your sibs are like mine, not only do they not help but criticize what we did, some nerve in my opinion. That is unmitigated gall, right?
Well, I reached a breaking point and if you keep going like this you will too. Unfortunately, my mom liked to pit us against each other which only complicated things. They saw her as a ‘sweet frail old lady.’ Yeah, of course they did. The only time they were in her life was for a hot meal or a check or money in their hands.
I was the one who did everything, did all of the heavy lifting and caught the brunt of it all. They are old fashioned and they felt that it was my place as the only daughter.
I couldn’t take anymore and told mom to stay with my brother until they can place her somewhere. I told my brother that if he felt he could do better than to bring her home with them. My gosh, it can become so ugly.
I detest conflict. All my life I wanted peace and harmony. It’s why I climbed up into my huge old live oak tree in my backyard as a kid and just watch the clouds go by and dream about being happy.
Well, now that I am free from my caregiving responsibilities I can finally see how blind I was, how trapped I was, etc. Oh others tried telling me. I guess I wasn’t ready to hear it. I felt I had to please everyone and I was so miserable doing it.
Please step away long enough to reflect and get a healthy perspective on your situation.
In the end it’s your choice and I respect whatever you choose but without help it is nearly impossible to do what is best for everyone.
I wanted the happy ending with my mom and sibs. Doesn’t happen in all situations. I’m in therapy and learning to accept what is beyond my control.
Best wishes for you. I truly mean that. I am in no way judging or criticizing you. It’s all about balance. Get the balance back in your life.
My wonderful therapist told me many times, “Take your power back!”
Why not call the sisters together with you now and tell them that without predictable schedules help (barring illness of course) you cannot go on. That you don't fault them or hold them in any way responsible, but that you cannot go on.
You are honestly in a position much like mine. THERE IS NO ONE ELSE to help me with whatever choices I make now as regards my bro. That is one reason, but only one of why I cannot do hands on care.
I hope you will speak with the sisters now. Then understand the limitations that we ALL HAVE as human beings, and decide if it is not time for placement for your Mom, and you sisters visiting when you are able.
So sorry for your pain.
If your mom is very ill, you should call in Hospice. They can help at home but also can help with nursing home as well.
The problem here is that your mother needs more care than you 3 can collectively provide. It’s time to either a few full time caregivers or place your mom in a skilled nursing facility or possibly assisted living if she can still perform her ADLs and doesn’t really require skilled care. It’s not something most people actually want to do but it’s something many HAVE to do. Your mom requires a village now.
There are always other options for Mum's care.
Your sisters are not going to step up to the plate, so forget about that.
Do what is best form you and your mother.
I don't believe that any person should remain in a home setting when they require 24/7 care. It is unrealistic for 1 person to do that. Shifts are required, because quite frankly, 1 person should not sacrifice their wellbeing to another for the rest of that person's life. It is an unfair expectation to place on anyone.
Call her doctor and get a needs assessment done, they may refer you for this, so tell them when you make the appointment what you are looking for.
Find a lovely facility that can meet her needs. Figure out the finances, get Medicaid application started if she doesn't have any money or assets. Then move her and start being her daughter again.
If your sister's squawk make it very clear that you are not able to do this any longer and they will need to step up and take over her care 100%. If they are unable to do that, then mom is being placed where her needs can be met.
I wouldn't want my children to give up their lives so I can stay at a location, because that's all a house is. I would want them to come visit me where we can have a nice visit because someone else is doing the work of keeping me safe, fed, clean and as entertained as I want to be.
I hope that you find a lovely place for your mom and you can find a path to mend the relationships between your sisters.
Your mom might need to be in a nursing home if she requires this much care.
Your sisters DO NOT have to provide any more care than they are willing to. If there is a gap - it is time for the professionals. Call mom's doctor. Call the Area Association on Aging for assessment and bring in caregivers WITH MOM's MONEY or have her placed.
You have expectations of yourself and your sisters that are clearly not sustainable - make changes of your choice now, before a change is forced on you (you get sick, your mom does, etc)
We kept my dad at home far too long.
It's time to place your mother in a facility.
Did YOU decide that the three of you would have to take care of your mother? You can't make decisions for what OTHERS will do.
Did you hate your sister before this caregiving role dominated your life? Or is it this situation that is tearing your relationship with your sisters apart? Who is taking care of your home if you haven’t been there in 13 days?
This is past a coping solution, it is more than what you can handle. There are decent nursing home facilities out there. Or, since your mom is very ill, does she qualify for an inpatient hospice facility?
You all three of you have other commitments and responsibilities and different capabilities. Focus on your mother's needs, consult her doctor and health care team about what resources and services might be found for her; and then you three daughters *supplement* that professional support by... being her daughters.
All of the drama and conflict is the result of trying to share a task that is probably too much for one person at a time anyway. Get help, and it should take most of the stress away.