It's weird.. I just seem to have dropped off the planet. I don't care about seeing anyone or going anywhere... yet I feel totally deprived of life. I sure hope this passes soon! Anyone else familiar with this? I'm confused by it. I have been caring for my mother for just over a year now and it's 24/7, 365 days a year. She's an angel and easy to care for (thank God!) but I just seem to have lost track of my own life along the way. Even though it's not too demanding on me, and she's not a difficult person, I still feel that I need a little more of my own life somewhere in the midst of it all but I don't have a clue how to get back into the land of the living. I can't leave her alone long enough to do much of anything.
Do you have anyone that can sit with your mom so that you can leave the house and do something fun for yourself? If not, can you invite friends over for coffee? As much as I think it would be better for you to be able to leave the house, the distraction of visitors is worth it's weight in gold, too.
It sounds like you have a wonderful relationship with your Mom, you are very blessed. I am sure she would want you to have time to do things as much as you need to have time to do things...for you.
I've been where you are now, and had to motivate myself by scheduling my day and including something I really loved doing. I did that today, and didn't want to stop and go back to the work activities. I just got totally caught up in something that was so relaxing and inspirational.
So, what did you do before? Did you read? Garden? Walk, hike? Set aside some time to do that, make it mandatory and it will, like Calgon, "take you away!"