80 yr old MIL acts so frail fragile and weak but when pissed off she can fly down a flight of stairs with NO PROBLEM !! not even in need of the hand rail !! Most of the time she sleeps,90 % of the time !! the other 10 percent she is incapable of even walking to the bathroom. 100 % of the time she has her mind on MONEY and how to SPEND IT !! Is confused on bills and believes we OWE on items SHE IMIAGINES !! My ulcer finally broke loose a few days ago and because hubby ( pissed at me for wanting 20 minutes ALONE) refused to take me to the hospital so I ended up calling a squad. When the ambulance arrived she took off down the stairs to meet them in the driveway, didn't even need to hang on the railing of the stairs !!! Her ONLY comment to them is " this is going to cost $ 175 bucks" !! No concern for ME at all JUST MONEY that SHE don't have to spend !! I am SO at my end it's not even funny. Hubby is stuck right in the middle and says it's BOTH of us acting like 2 year olds. I'm a 2 year old for asking for 20 MINUTES ALONE !! LOL guess I'm guilty then cause when she pushes and pushes and pushes I either take 20 minutes ALONE or beat her senseless !! (which I would never do so I turn it inside and becomes a BLEEDING ULCER) Since I came home things are very strained, walking egg shells. Hubby has let her know that no matter how hard she pushes me, and HIM he will take her side so she knows she can continue to do so and is almost happy about it other than the sarcastic comments like I refuse to live like this or she needs to get out!!! trust me the thought of walking out has crossed my mind more than she (or he ) knows and if I had a place to go and a way to get there I'd be gone in a heart beat BUT... She can not be on her own she WILL end up in a nursing home, which the FAMILY refuses to do !! I've had a stroke several years ago due to Blood pressure and this round while at the hospital with ulcer was 216/ 128.. dangerously close to the one that caused CVA LAST time and all hubby can say is I'm acting like a 2 yr old for letting it get to me !! Today I was cleaning house she always sleeps in her chair in the LIVINGROOM and I was cleaning the bathroom off the hallway. She had been up less than 2 hours and decided to "nap" I had the light on while cleaning and she yelled at me " do you really need to turn that light on, you know I am sleeping in here. Well DUHHH yes I do need a light on to CLEAN !! I was cleaning the MIRROR and the rubbing of glass made a sound, although she is 85 % DEAF in both ears (so she claims) began screaming at me stop making that noise you're just doing it to bug me. Hubby who works the NIGHT shift 11pm to 7 am is today volunteering to work a DOUBLE just to get out of the house !! He gets up and tells me to STOP cleaning !! I am SO AT MY WITS END!!
Not knowing what your financial situation is perhaps you can locate a senior center in your town - sign her up for dial a ride and let her go have lunch there and make some friends or join an activity - she might be sleeping out of boredom
If such a service is not available then contact social security and see if financial assistance is available for care for her - some extra money could be used to give you a break
If she's otherwise in good health - 80 is not old and this situation could last for years - is your husband an only child? Does he have siblings to take her for awhile ?
Do you understand what you wrote? Look at the first part of the sentence, then compare it to that following the "BUT". She's not your responsibility.
Your husband also needs to "man up" and take responsibility - was he always a pushover for his mother? Girl, you're seriously being used and abused.
It's way past the time to look for the magic slipper and take your Cinderella self out of this toxic environment. If you're worried about your marriage, take a good look at it and do an honest assessment.
Do you have kids that you could stay with for a while so you can find somewhere to live.
I hope the house you all live in does not belong to MIL. Please tell me that's not the case.
There is other family out there . Tell them don't ask for them to take MIL because you are no longer available.
Tell hubby the same thing.
Meals will be served at specific (reasonable ) times, take it or leave it. if she won't come to the table into the fridge it goes. Nothing till the next meal is due. No pound cake to nibble on.
It's not going to be easy but would you rather end up in a nursing home yourself not able to do anything for yourself. Yu can do it. you took the first step coming here so listen to the advice you receive.
Take a deep breath, pack your clothes in some bags [use trash bags then Mom-in-law will think you are taking the trash out], gather up some money, put it in your car. And when you husband comes home, quietly slip out the door, start the car and leave. Your husband won't follow you as he wouldn't leave this mother alone. And you go to the nearest woman's shelter to get away from all the abuse. You will be safe there.
If your husband flies off the handle, then you know that he has chosen his mother over you. And you start the divorce proceedings ASAP. This is not a marriage, it's a combat zone.
It is abundantly clear, kathyy1, that you are not a suitable caregiver or housemate for a person with dementia. That is NOT a criticism. Not everyone can do it, and there is no particular reason you should be able to do it.
I agree with Jessie. You do need to live in a different place than your MIL. Whether that means you leave, or MIL goes to a place that they understand dementia and know how to deal with her, I don't know. I guess that is for you and hubby to work out.
But definitely it is not good for you or for your MIL for you two to live in the same house.
It is the "or what." She has dementia. Her brain is damaged. Her social filters are gone. She honestly can't reason that clothes placed neatly on her head are clean.
SHE HAS A DAMAGED BRAIN. This is no game to her.
You say that your MIL has dementia. I'm providing a link from this site about people with that condition and how what we suspect as manipulative behavior is not. It might help you as you struggle with her behavior. It explains how while the behavior may be frustrating, challenging and difficult, it's not manipulative on purpose. The patient doesn't have that capability. It's sad that you are so effected by this, but unless you recognize what is really going on, you might continue to be stressed out.
Caring for a person like this is very challenging. If our expectations are for the person to be easy to get a along with and to please, I think we will be disappointed. It's not for everyone. Since your situation is so bothersome, I'd definitely try to find another alternative. I wish much luck.
https://www.agingcare.com/articles/dementia-behavior-manipulation-154554.htm
You could try caring more about your own health for a start.
Do you have any trouble since then making wise decisions for your own health and safety?
If you need to call your husband at work to intervene between you and the patient you are caring for this sounds like an untenable situation for you and your safety.
You may be more concerned with others right now-but your husband at least can get himself away-it seems selfish and hurtful to you-but he may survive.
People can only advise you, we cannot come through the screen in cyberspace to take you out of there.
It would be okay for you to call 911 next time you lock yourself in your room and the patient is pounding on your door, screaming. Ask them to come because you fear for your safety, that she is ill.
I found this article here on Aging Care that was a life saver for me because I was not the type to be a hands on caregiver and the article says it is ok.... https://www.agingcare.com/articles/not-everyone-cut-out-to-be-a-caregiver-162192.htm
Do you know what they do?
They call their local women's abuse hot line and they are helped to leave the situation and taken to a shelter. From there,there will be people available to help you. There is no knight on a white horse ready to swoop in and save you. I am afraid you have to put on the life vest yourself and find your own way to the life boat be it by ambulance, a taxi or a volunteer from the abuse center.
We can't do it. We can only make suggestions and advise. Please act now today.
You are on the internet type in "Women's abuse shelter" and see what comes up. Do it now, today, this minute.
People can tell us to get away. But the trouble is that family and friends can talk, but no one helps. THEY certainly don't want to deal with it personally. So they sit around saying "Tsk, tsk. Such a shame. I feel so bad for you." Then crickets.
You are the person who is not running away. In this situation, since it is your MIL, it seems like you are the only one who SHOULD be running away. Your MIL is really sick and you have no help, outlet, or money. What does your husband say when you tell him you can't do it anymore?
You write like an intelligent woman. I read that you were an LPN, but didn't like it. What you're doing now is the hardest type on LPN work, because you can't get away from it. For some reason I get the feeling that you need to get out of the house and get at least a part-time job. This will help get back some of your feeling of worth, as well as put some money in your pocket. It will also give you a good reason that you cannot be caregiver for the difficult MIL anymore.
I know you're probably feeling depressed right now. I find that taking walks helps me think about things that need to be done. Elder rage is very, very difficult. Things would be easier if the personalities were easier.
1. MIL has dementia resulting in incorrigible, erratic, hostile, inconsistent, somewhat violent behavior.
2. Kathy's husband doesn't seem to understand the issue of dementia and doesn't provide support to Kathy.
3. Kathy's already had medical issues; this is only the beginning before she has a heart attack, another stroke, or multiple medical complications.
4. Despite consistent evidence, Kathy responded to our collective suggestions not with a proposed plan but rather back to square 1 - complaining about MIL's behavior again.
5. Nothing is going to change unless Kathy recognizes that she is the one who has to, by making a life for herself. Moving off square 1 is hard, difficult, challenging, but it's better than staying in a situation which will either incapacitate her or kill her.
6. It is difficult to recognize the seriousness of the situation, but it's come to reality time for Kathy.
7. Kathy, wouldn't you be much happier without all this grief and aggravation? You must know from the advice you're getting that you're the only one who can change the situation from a negative one to a positive one.
8. Kathy needs to figure out a way to get herself moving from the stuck position to a forward one.
9. Kathy needs to develop an exit strategy, hard as it may be.
10. Kathy, remember that YOU are the only one who can change your situation. So, what steps are you taking, starting now?
And yes, I am being blunt b/c I think it's appropriate at this time to help you recognize that focusing on what MIL does, doesn't do, said or didn't say is irrelevant at this point. It's not going to improve until you get out of that situation.
Call a women's abuse hotline - NOW.
I am in favor of a milder approach. Maybe a small step would be telling your husband you are ready to go back to work now. I have a feeling your sense of self worth is really damaged at present and you need to build it back. Follow through on your plans for caring for yourself. Maybe the money won't be great, but it will be something.
Talk to your doctor about treating you for H. pylori, a bacterium responsible for many stomach ulcers. Doctors know about the bacteria, but for some reason few will treat it. I don't know why, because it is well known.
Go to a women's shelter. Take GA's advice. It is intelligent and detailed. We've all been there, in one way or another.
So it's hard to imagine the fear that Kathy must face going out on her own at this difficult time of her life.
If she's never had a job or been self supporting, that's a major challenge in and of itself. If she has no car, add that to the challenge list and it grows exponentially. If she's grown accustomed to abuse w/o realizing it exists, that challenge list becomes almost insurmountable. It's no wonder she hasn't responded recently, and perhaps feels as though her venture onto this forum for help wasn't a successful one for her.
So I change my suggestions.
Kathy, work on one step at a time, perhaps starting with finding what outreach sources are available. United Way's hotline number is 211. Those people and others in women's outreach programs can help you take the first step.
I recommended big steps; maybe little steps are better at this time.
But don't accept that the current situation has to be a way of life. It doesn't.
Do you have ANY family? If you do an are on good terms, crash on their couch.
Otherwise, find a women's shelter, or worst case scenario a homeless shelter, and LEAVE. You're health is way on the line. Take you health insurance card and ID (so you can go to a hospital if need be) and get out.
On my absolute worst and darkest days of caregiving, I told my husband if I had to continue living the way I was (no help with an extremely difficult charge that was fully dependent 24/7 vstr) I was going to go live under a bridge. I would have if it came to that. If your health is in jeopardy, there is no rational reason to keep going on like this.
If you don't have your health, you have NOTHING.