For the past month or so my father has been refusing to get out of his bed or participate in any of the activities they have there. I'm afraid he's just willing himself to die so he doesn't have to stay there anymore. I have spoke to the staff and they obviously can't make him get up and he's being an ass to me, which makes me want to beat some sense into him. He's always been very stubborn, and just like my mother, he has two sides of his personality - the one he shows the staff and the one he shows his family. The difference between those personalities is night and day. I know he doesn't want to be there, and he still doesn't understand why we can't take him home. We tell him what the real deal is, but either he just lets it roll off or isn't listening or caring. My bet is he hears what he wants to hear and to hell with the rest!
He's also seeing the speech therapist again because he's getting choked more often - they were giving him the mechanical diet but finally given the ok to eat other things, but with him choking more I don't know what's going to happen.
Everything is just crazy - I don't know what to do. I'd love to go up there every day and try to be his cheerleader, but that's impossible. I've tried to get him excited about some of the activities they have but since he knows it bothers me that he just lays there, that's what he's going to do in order for me to say ok, yea, you can come home. Obviously, that is not going to happen. We aren't even checking him out for a day - take him to lunch or see my cousin play right across the road because we know once we get him out of there he will absolutely refuse to go back in - I'm sure he will fight and the police will get involved and we might have to make this a commitment stay...hell I don't know....
Just needed to vent - if you have any advice I would love to hear it!