I am just so angry !!!!
I phoned lifeline for help and they helped.
My brothers have nothing to do with dad and when a big decision has come up they are al experts . If you have seen my previous posts you will understand.
I am not in a frame of mind to elaborate .
Any one else at the end of there tether ?
I know in my heart I am on a downhill spiral
Well I am feeling better ?
I don't know for how long , we would have to put on the credit card and hubby is freaking out.
Funny thing , I guess I should be on a ". sneaky" forum as I really need help but don't want to burden anyone . I am siting here drinking a bottle of red wine and have a stressfull. Day tomorrow . It is easy to pretend you are ok ....I am to some degree , to tell the truth I also have a drinking problem ........shoot me ....I have started to realise honesty is the best thing .i guess it is self medication . I don't want to go I to a long history , my biological parents where alcohols and depressed and bipolar .... Not raised by them . I guess I should be on a different forum.
I look and act normal , well groomed , run two businesses and seem totally together . Inside I am desperate for help . Thanks everyone for help , Aussie chrissie
And I can't even read her texts as she makes me want to dig a bigger hole to escape .
My husband can't listen anymore, apparently I go about everything the wrong way and my therapist has been sick. ! What is he thinking ! , he is supposed to be helping me , hahaa
So I am going to go and get some real help . Looking forward to it.
If you hate them, or there is no reconciliation, then be mad, grieve it, and let it go. Do not hold on to the grievances. We don't have to love our family because it's blood, we do have to love ourselves and come to terms with our own feelings and actions.
I will always be you sister
open card
So you will have to wish for something else when you blow out your candles!
Might have a shrimp the barbie,????
I have decided to go to a health retreat for two weeks, my bipolar is crazy and I am at melting point .last thing we can afford .i feel it is the only way to survive at the moment
Fair dinkum Aussie
Well what a mistake that was . She said I am upset that I diddnt get my own way.
Ok !!!! Really .....I was thinking of dad actually
I can picture getting up at dads funeral and asking them would they like to live in a cage for there last few years , or in a beautiful home with more staff , more activities and some dignity .
I think it is mums insecurity holding it all back and my brothers are puppets in this .
Feeling a lot better , apparently if you tell a doctor you want to kill your brothers they take it seriously !!!!
So overnight in a pysc ward .i kept telling them I was ok , just having a meltdown.
Luckily the physicist fist realised me .
Resting today , can you all tell me which country you are just for curious purposes . I am in australia
Just remember hating someone is like drinking poison , you are the only one you are damaging.
I will help you for an hour