I fell like my heart is going to break. He has become very vicious with me. had to call 911 on Saturday=again on Monday. They didn't admit him to hospital. WHY?? Was told if I refused to tke him home.- state would ake over guardianship. ery quickly losing it!
I would listen to the social worker and take her cue regarding visitation over the next few weeks as hubby adjusts and of course you adjust to the new normal. I'm sorry you are going thru this hard time, but try to stay positive and know you did the right thing -- you don't have to be anxious or fearful anymore...you can just be the loving wife and partner you want to be and leave the caregiving to skilled nurses and CNAs. Concentrate on making those moments special with little treats for both you and hubby.
Look after yourself. You did the best you could for as long as you could. You may not feel like it right now because you feel natural guilt, but you should be proud you kept him at home as long as you did. It's an exhausting and lonely and often thankless task.
Be at peace knowing he is in a place where he will be cared for by folk who understand the condition.
Space out your visits if he is abusive. Hopefully he will settle in and become calmer. Speak to the member of staff there that you trust/like the most about what they recommend visit wise short term.
Cruel cruel illness.
Take care of you now.