I realized that I started asking this question in another post and it probably wasn't the right place, so lets try here.
My MIL has lived with me for the past 11 months. When she moved in, the doctors told us she had about 2-4 months left. End stage cancer (pancreatic, liver, spleen). She has always been a pretty nasty person, that girl in high school that was your best friend to your face and then the moment your back was turned said the most terrible things about you and spread nasty rumors - yeah, that is my MIL. She has spent her life as a martyr, using people's sympathies to her advantage and to get people to do things for her. She is a pretty negative person, and never has been able to empathize for other people's situations. She turns everything around to always be about her, and always has to "outdo" everyone with her problems being worse than theirs. But she is my husband's mother, my kids grandmother, so I have looked beyond her behavior and loved her as I love my own mother.
When she got sick, I of course stepped up and did everything I could to help her. Surgery and Chemo were not successful, so when we found out in June that the cancer had spread, we moved her into our house and decided to make what time she had left filled with laughter and surrounded by family. That was 11 months ago, and now her personality has taken its toll on my kids and myself to the point were no one can stand to be around her. My husband and his brothers help me, they each spend a day with her so I can work but only having to spend 6 hours with her a day makes them less annoyed with her nastiness than myself - I deal with it ALL THE TIME!
Things have become pretty heated the past couple months, especially bad this past month. She fell and was "out of it" for a few days, turns out she was not taking one of her medications (she was dumping it because she doesn't like the taste), which is what cause the temporary dementia. Once she started feeling better and coming around, she accused me of over medicating her and said that was the reason why she was getting "loopy", so now she documents in a log every time I give her medication, the name, the dose, the time. I am the only reason she is still alive, I have fed her, stayed up all night with her, bathed her, taken care of her when no one else would. I have given up my life for her for almost a year. I caught her last month on the phone with a cousin saying that "Well, you know...she just does the best she can" in a rude tone. I couldn't believe it. When I confronted her about it, she said I was too sensitive and that she meant that I do a good enough job considering that I also have to take care of my kids and can't focus all my care on her. She has also told other family members that I am not attentive enough, one day she had to wait 20 minutes for me to bring her tea. She says nasty, snide comments all day long and I am just fed up. I have spoken to my husband, told him I don't deserve to be treated that way in my house, to which is response is "she has always been that way". Well, she may have always been this way, but I don't have to put up with it anymore. If she cannot find a way to appreciate what I do and have done for her, then I can't and won't do anymore.
So how do I tell my husband's family that I am done being her caregiver and that I do not want her living in my house anymore? I have had some health issues lately due to stress and anxiety, my kids hate being home and I have no social life anymore. I can't keep doing this. I have no idea how much longer she has left - it could be two weeks (which I can handle) or it could be another 6 months (which I cannot handle).
Thanks for any advise.
I hope you decide to come back pbjgear and let us know how you're doing. If your MIL is still in your home you can do one of three things. Let things continue as they are or tell your husband it's either you or her and he needs to know that if he chooses her then you will be moving out and he and his family will be taking care of her. Or the third thing is set your boundaries with her and let her know that there will be consequences for crossing them. She can treat you with respect or she can go to a facility. Her choice.
Now, I'd say that's BULL...and the next question would be, is she right, or can some limits be set? Pancreatic cancer is a horrible disease, but in itself does not make you demented or excuse being continuously just stupidly and inconisderately biting the hand that feeds you..
I just told my husband that I had enough dealings with his family and being the caregiver for his mother and told him he needed to talk to his siblings and figure out what they were going to do. That was it! I watched her for one more week after that and then the visiting nurses were called in. They determined my MIL could no longer live alone and she was placed in a nursing facility.
My FIL is the same way. At his point in time, he is in a rehab facility. I have already offered for my husband to move in with him and will in no way feel any ill will toward the situation. However, I will not move my father-in-law in with me. I was in a caregiving situation where my mom took care of my grandparents off and on for 15 years. I will not put my child through that.
I will however move out of my home with my daughter if my narcissist FIL attempts to move in.
I did ask my Hubby if he wants to go with me or shall I go alone to the NH to check it out. He said we could go together.
I did tell him in January that I plan to be living in MY home by Christmas. I really think he just needs me to take the first step.
I hope he will see my vision for her living in a good place, close enough to our house so we can visit her every day. Our son & his family live close to there too & can visit more often. I feel ok about it because I"m friends with the apt mngr there and know some of the residents (I used to sing there).
It will be so freeing to know someone else can take care of her meds, bath , food etc. (I can't tell you how many times a day I hear "can I borrow your eyes?, or "but I can't see" like a whipped puppy") It will be a joy to get to come and visit her, then walk away...
I don't know how the conversations go with your hubby, but I'm praying he will find favor with you and understand what he needs to do for YOU. ;-)
Set very, very clear boundaries. You don't need to give a list of reasons. It is obvious you have given over and beyond what her other children have done. Simply give your end date and request a response from them as to where the next place of care will be.
Do you have POA? Who is managing her finances? Do you have enough to place her into assisted care?
I agree with the hospice idea and considering the dynamics of the family and you being the dil, sil, I would just get your husband on board and not clue the rest of the family as to your real reasons for doing it...just saying she requires more care than you can give should suffice and if any of her other children feel different...let them have at it. Tell them your health needs attention. I suggest this to avoid a family fight and you being the target. I am sending you hugs...it's a tough place to be in and I support you!!
Pbjgear - is there a reason hospice wasn't considered before this? Are your husband and his siblings against it for some reason? I agree with Madge, Christina, and Chicago. Time to sit hubby down and have a frank heart to heart. You have gone above and beyond. He should appreciate that and support you wholeheartedly. ((((Hugs))))
They should wear tee shirts printed just for them: "It's ALL About ME!"
Or a big "N" tattooed on the forehead. Or branded. You pick:)
However, she was a very nice, unselfish, sweet woman a heart of gold. So my husband is only "slightly" scarred from her. She has since passed and I miss her. I just don't miss her "church lady" stuff. Noooooooo
He seems to have the same attitude as your husband. Like because she's always been like this, I need to just learn from him how to deal with it. He is unable to make the decision to move her to assisted living! No plan at all. Just keep on keeping on till she dies....she was 93 when we got here & she's 96 now! I may not ever be the same af ter living in this state of limbo , for who knows how long!
Do no let this family take advantage of you any longer.
Get your ammunition ( knowledge ) then tell PAhubby who has been crippled by the witch that you need him to get her into a place where she will be taken care of. Stick you with the fork because You are DONE!
Do you see how they can override even a deadly disease? This is not a miracle from God. No. Try again.
Sadly, you may have known someone like this before. I hope your husband is strong enough to put you and the kids FIRST. No offense meant:) xo
First, he is passive aggressive. Probably from dealing with his mother.
Second, she is HIS problem, not yours. She should never disrespect you in your home.
My SIL was a nasty individual who decided she hated me and my BIL's wife. We could do no right. My husband, like yours, took the passive aggressive approach. My BIL defended his wife and wouldn't invite the SIL to his home until she respected his wife.
Today my nasty SIL is receiving treatment for depression. She is nicer. But I had a wake up moment with my husband and his inability to defend me against his family. It is his family, his problem. Not mine.
Tell your husband you are done. Don't back down, don't be nasty, just be firm. If he doesn't support you, your problem is much more than a nasty MIL. Your husband is being passive aggressive and not supporting you. He should care more about you than to expect you to take abuse off a narcissistic mother. This is very selfish behavior.
I wish you luck. Please go to the site daughtersofnarcissisticmothers.com. I know she is not your mother but I think you will see her photo there along with my mother's photo, if you get what I mean. :)