I was wondering if I should have help sometimes but maybe I'm blowing things out of proportion.I've never been a caretaker,So it's kinda nerve recking when someone says bad things to you and about you,I just want to rest a maybe I'm just being a little crazy or MF like he calls me.I don't think he would let anyone come in to help with him anyway.
No you are not blowing things out of proportion.
Your friend may be mad, rather than mad at you - you just happen to be there.
There may be medical reasons for his outbursts.
But to go back to the beginning - you should have and you NEED help.
If you don't get help, and you try to carry on, you may break down or worse and end up "leaving" by default even though you never planned to.
What kind of support services can you access? Have you asked around?