I am at a loss. Somedays are more difficult then others. I normally am a happy person. I still see my friends and have both my Covid shots already. During the last year with Covid I didn't get to hug my mom or see her very often. They put up plexiglass outside during the summer and I would schedule an hour appt once a week. It wasn't enough. I think she died before her time of loneliness. Im in a support group but I miss her so much.
Then the loss of my best friend makes it so much worse. I miss her more than I thought I could miss anyone. The two of them make this a horrible time.
If it doesn't help, consider getting some therapy beyond just the grief group. It really can help. Keep in mind, though, it hasn't been very long, and it's tough to recover from grief when you haven't really finished grieving yet.
My husband of 26 years died 7 months ago, and I'm still having a hard time with it. Just when I think I'm having a pretty good day, something will trigger my grief. It could be a song, something I've read, or just walking by his picture on my wall. It doesn't take much. But I don't beat myself up over it. I just let it come, and I let myself feel it,(which is so important)instead of stuffing it down. Everyone grieves differently, and everyone's timetable for grieving is different as well, so just take your time through the process, as your mom and friend deserve that much. God bless you.
Grief at any time is difficult but during a time when we are supposed to keep our distance, no hugging makes grief even more difficult.
I can say all the things that people do..they are out of pain....they will not suffer any longer...but that does not help the ones left behind.
Honor them by doing.
Was there something that your mom and your friend liked doing? Can you volunteer in their honor?
Dealing with 2 losses so close if you feel like you need to talk to someone ask your doctor for a name of a therapist that you can talk to. Sometimes talking to 1 person helps when a Support Group might not be enough.
Just give yourself time. How much time?...As long as it takes is the right answer. No one should have a timetable on grief.
I’m so sorry for all of these losses.
Perhaps consider a GriefShare group. You can Google them. Our local group is meeting in-person.
Best wishes.